I feel lost. I know I'm unhappy. I know what I want. I just have no idea what to do to get from point A to B right now. My next move isn't very clear presently and that makes me nervous. I'm stuck. Yet again, (as always) I'm stuck in this fucking shithole town. I need to start heading in that direction soon or I'll seriously loose it.

Capricorn (Dec 22- Jan 19 ( Read more... )

So I'm confused now. I wasn't really anticipating this. I always think this will work and then somehow to my innate surprise it doesn't. Everytime. Never works. I'm overthinking. I know this. But something in my gut tells me that this isn't where this ends. Maybe if I lived there, or you here, or I wasn't so scared, or you so anxious. Maybe then it ( Read more... )

I just want to be in love again. I am quickly developing this pattern of having casual sex with people because in the moment my horomones tell me its what I need and that I can be just as detatched as others can be. I can just have sex for sex sake. But then after, when all is said and done, its not what I want at all. During, its great, after I ( Read more... )

I'm writing this to you to make it exactly clear how I feel in this moment. I'm pissed. I've honestly never been more disapointed or angry at anyone in my entire life. It baffels me that any living being could exist in such shear disregard and disrespect for others' existences. If a total stranger on the street approached me and said those same ( Read more... )

*So before when I told her I didn't think I was angry, may not true any more. Now I'm pissed. Raging. I can't believe anyone, any human being alive could operate under such shear and utter un-sensitivity for someone else's existence. If ever I had doubt, or question, it was answered. And in some weird way I'm grateful for that closure ( Read more... )

So apparently depression is anger based. I learned this week that anxiety is based on fear and depression is anger thats been supressed and stuffed. Linda says I'm angry. This is strange for me because I've tried for a really long time to become the complete opposite of what my father is, (only to recently realize that we're more alike than I care ( Read more... )

People never truly cease to amaze me. Grow up. Period ( Read more... )

DISCLAIMER *** If you are about to read this know that I love my family, friends and job. I'm just very frustrated ( Read more... )

So I miss things like this.


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