falling farther and farther into make believe. Am I actually going completely insane? I dont know. Things are not going in my favor right now. I suck at school. I am unmotivated career wise. Nobody wants me for Valentines Day. I might have cancer. I smoke cloves. I havent eaten a full meal in probably about 6 days. And all that keeps me alive is ( Read more... )

I have this new found love for metal rock bands. I mean, I've always loved the classics like ACDC, Metallica, and so on. But fuck are they good ( Read more... )

vomit. thats how I feel right now. Its 9:15 and I have to go to work in about an hour and I'm fucking pathetic. I had an amazing night last night ( Read more... )

oh wow. I'm moving on. I'm free. I'm young. I'm powerful. I'm learning. I'm naive. I'm sensitive. I'm thinking. I'm wishing. I'm gone ( Read more... )

last night was video game night. old school. but I had fun. I need to buy my interpol tickets, pronto. Nick and I are gonna go. I cant wait. Unfortunately, I'm sure I'll see about everyone that I dont want to see there. But thats what you get for loving good music ( Read more... )

I dropped Photography. Too expensive. And I feel that I dont need guidance on how to take pictures, a dark room and developing chemicals would've been nice though. Ehh. But I had Film today. And I loved it. I think I found my major. I need to pick up another class and I really wish creative writing was an option but I believe their all full. I love ( Read more... )

So school starts tomorrow. I'm excited but pretty nervous as well. I have no idea where my classes are and I hate the feeling of being lost more than anything. I'll just try to get there early I guess, and check everything out ( Read more... )

I went to this tarot card party last night and got a reading done. Some of the stuff was really useful and correct, other stuff was bullshit. Just words to fill up space. But it was interesting, especially with all the stuff thats been happening lately. But I'm getting better ( Read more... )

I hate packing. Absolutely hate it. I dont have to work till 5 tonight. Thats a relief. I move out tomorrow afternoon. I'm kind of sad in a way. Things change. People change. I'm not that little rebellious 16 year old anymore. I like my parents. I like the feeling of being home. But, I'm not getting any younger ( Read more... )

Things have been pretty crazy around this place. I'm moving out on Wednesday. No more free everything. But thats ok, I'm getting a really good deal. I"ve been working too much. I'm putting in my notice at my second job on Tuesday. NO MORE. Fuck I hate that place. And with my friends recent death, I just havent really been in the mood to party it up ( Read more... )