A friend of mine passed away today. Its been pretty hard for everyone that knew him. And even though none of you knew him, I think his friends and family would greatly appreciate nice thoughts and some prayers. A simple thing as that can go a long way. His name was Nick. He was one of the sweetest guys you would've ever met ( Read more... )

random thoughts at the start of a new year ( Read more... )

Its new years eve. I dont know what I'm doing. Supposedly going out in an hour or so. But I dont even really want to. I just got a whole sock load of movies from Nick that I really want to watch. Clockwork Orange, which I've seen but could watch again and again, Pie-like the math equation, American Beauty, Waking Life, and Basketball Diaries. So if ( Read more... )

There is so much I want to show. Scenes, smiles, emotions, darkness, light, truth, death, life. But can it really all come together ( Read more... )

Christmas is good. Even though I hate all that bullshit about saying happy holidays, cause Merry Christmas might offend people, like customers and what not. Fuck that. I'll say Merry Christmas if I god damn please, it is Christmas. Man this fucking society we live in is fucking ridiculous. Do what you want. Believe in what you want. Dont let ( Read more... )

I cant stop it. More and more ideas just keep coming. I stayed up till the wee hours of the morning last night just writing. Smiles, art, the beatles, city lights, mmmm I just want to inhale it all. And then put it on the screen. Sometimes I wonder IF there is any other career option for me. Sometimes its good to have a backup plan, but when you ( Read more... )

I came to a realization last night. I love ninjas. They are so fucking awesome. I really love the asian, oriental, japanese way of life. So tranquil and calm. I could've spent hours last night just sitting on the ground being surrounded by the fog, staring up the trunks of big tall trees. But it was late, and stuff happens. But I kept looking ( Read more... )

So that guy Nick called me. The film student that was interested in my work....Yeah he called last night but I wasnt able to talk to him till today. He wants to get together sometime and read some of my work, if anything grabs his interest, then he wants to film it. I'm soo fucking excited. I'm just scared that he wont like my style. Hmm, I've been ( Read more... )

I'm in the weirdest mood. I want to cry but I cant. I want to scream but I'm scared. Why is nothing happening? Do you ever feel like your life has been put on hold? Like the greater power that controls your future is busy with other people so they've set you on the shelf for now. They'll get around to you sooner or later ( Read more... )

I dont feel so great today. Maybe its the drugs. Maybe its me. I dont know. Whitney left today for 5 months. I dont see her that much anyway, but now I'll barely get to talk to her. Fuck. I dont know what I'm doing ( Read more... )