Sometimes, like right now, I feel like college is too much for me to handle.  I even go as far as wonder what the hell I'm even doing here... but then it all rushes back to me from time to time; the sanity and logic that keeps my head straight.  It reminds me that I have a purpose in life, so do we all, and fate will take its course no matter what ( Read more... )

 I've realized that almost all of my past partners or lovers or bestest friends end up leaving my life because they move away or the law is involved somehow.  I suddenly feel like the world is preventing me from having long-term relationships of any kind... when will this cycle break?  I don't want to feel the hurt and remorse anymore...

 Wow.  Last night was the drunkest and almost the highest I've ever been.  It was also the most beer I've drunk within my entire life, lol.  I think I had 10 1/2 beers at the party.  That's almost two six packs and for me that's really saying something.  I think I like being drunk and high at the same time!  It made everything sooo fun and ( Read more... )

 I'm really pleased with my methods of coping with life.  Not only are they usually healthy, but they make me stronger and help me keep sane.  Whether it is expressing, and therefore venting, my emotions and cognitions through artistic means, such as poetry and artwork, I also try to overcome my fear and face anything that is causing me problems.  ( Read more... )

 Valentine's Day makes me so angry, I can't see straight.  That happens when I have no one to love and impress and vise-versa on this day or any other day for that matter.  Even if I'm not in a relationship, I just wish I had some amazing gal to lock my arms around and sweep her off her feet.  If only I could feel like I was on top of the world ( Read more... )

I suppose the icey darkness of outside's weather is the best way to describe how I feel today.  I feel... but it's cold and it goes deep and eventually the pain turns into a consistant awarness of numbing cold that slowly makes it way through me.

A confliction.
Maybe I'm not right for her, but she's right for me.
Maybe I'm not her type, but she is ( Read more... )

Woohoo!  MSU is closed!

Well, college is closed until noon.  And they said they would make another decision by 11am before that.  So, I'm hoping college ends up becoming closed for the rest of the day... *crosses fingers*

Arms cradle, hips sway while the music continues to play ( Read more... )

Ugh.  I  don't know what's wrong with me.  I went to bed early, yesterday evening, around 5:30pm and then I wake up at 8pm hacking and coughing and almost throwing up since my lung felt like they were on fire and in a vice.  I tried everything that would help me and probably an hour later, I recovered enough to go back to sleep... Now I'm awake ( Read more... )