new journal.

People are stupid. sending their mom after my mom. to tell her i was following you... even though you said to meet me there with you god damned fucking hoodie, you petty little bitch. grow up and handle shit on your own. getting your mom after me is so fifth grade.

takebacklies = journal :) new screen name and phone number tomorrow. :) ( Read more... )

I can't believe I had been so blinded for so long with something that was SO WRONG it seemed right. I see it now, thanks to my bestest friends in the world and my lovey of course. Thank you babe for being here for me through this, even though it had to do with her and I know the feelings are mutual but you're mine and I have to respect what's yours ( Read more... )

"half smoked cigarettes and you're the trash that infests my sheets. Can't make a wife out of a whore, don't want your skin on me. And you're, you're addicted to the drug of lust. Detoxing the cold sweat of shame and I love your pain.

I gave you these roses now but I left in the thorns, I'd rather hurt someone than hurt myself. I'll dispose of you ( Read more... )

Wow. So much has been happening lately it's crazy. Hmm... shall we?

1) Summer School is bunk

2) my old best friends (Joseph and Christian) and I are getting to catch up :) I love the summers

3) Beautiful girlfriend, wish I could give this girl the rest of my life for eternity and beyond.

4) Got into a huge fight at the pool last night. my head hurts. ( Read more... )

I don't know what to do. I really need this girl, all my friends it's good for me, but I don't know. I can't get past the past and I'm scared of the future. I'm afraid of being denied. I'm supposed to suck it up, but I can't. I don't know how to, I lost my chance. I had it, and lost it. I don't know what is left, if only you knew....

I can't keep playing this game with myself. I know it's not that I'm not with her, it's that I have lost her and moving on seems so easy sometimes for her, while I'm still stuck in our past. Who cared more? Sometimes I have to wonder because it's evident she could live without me sometimes, but then other times I know she loved me at one point or ( Read more... )

Worthless does not even cut it ( Read more... )

Wow... so the day started off pretty bad....

But, god, look how it ended.

<3 I think I'm in loveeeeeee with you.... ;)

Oh boy. What a night to remember, while I still am awake at 3:30 and have to be to work by 10 AM... but I don't care, nothing can phase me right now, nothing can touch me.

You know how silly it is that we watch our lives pass us by, day by day? Do you realize how much time we spend being mad, or upset or angry when all we really should be doing is being happy and loving and caring for everything. I spent a lot of time thinking tonight when Liz and Jen were talking and I went walking in the rain on my own. I was ( Read more... )

I never really thought I would ever say this... but as much as I dread leaving good old Buffalo to go to Herkimer, I am really actually glad I am leaving... it will be a good experience for me to go through, and I know that well enough I'm just scared to do this on my own, ya know? But like Sara told me the other night, she is sick of all this ( Read more... )