upset. disappointed. let down. offended.

i'm kind of sad... i don't know if that's the right word. i just feel let down. jonathan noticed it tonight. tonight was weird. something was just ... off, and i don't know what it was. jonathan, sami, deb, and i had dinner and then we went to see steven. it's worse because jonathan and i talked about how i was worried things would be different ( Read more... )

so i burned a copy of the hanukah gfc cd for myself (from my sister)... and it makes me so happy. especially because jenn's on it! and you can hear her voice sooooo well. it's CRAZY distinctive and i <3 it. it makes me feel like i could close my eyes... and be either at a nfty event with her, or even back on kibbutz ( Read more... )

i hate living at home. my parents anger me. so WHAT if my room is a mess? i'm making fucking all a's.. except for an 89 in bio 2. i'm taking harder classes than either of my parents took in high school. i made higher SAT score then them too. i don't do drugs. i'm not dating around (or sleeping around for that matter). i'm not doing any of that ( Read more... )

there's a feeling i get.. when i go to a nfty event. i feel whole. i feel happy. i feel like i actually belong someplace. but those feelings were so much stronger this weekend than they usually are. gee, could it be because somebody wasn't there? yeah. i feel so free... not caring about what people thought of me... because it really didn't matter ( Read more... )

woah. whole new level of coolness ( Read more... )

my life (my high school career.. which is my life these days), has been condensed. it has been edited and trimmed to fit literary expectations, and pasted ever so painstakingly onto a few precious 8 1/2 by 11 sheets of paper also known as a college application. Innitially, it makes me happy, to see that on paper i look successful, but then it ( Read more... )

oh man... i love being 18 ( Read more... )

there are some times in life when you come to a realization,at that point in time you are truly happy. but what about the rest of the time. when you know what happiness truly means to you, but you aren't happy ( Read more... )

links!!

http://www.cyberparodies.com/

enjoy. look for the hannukkah hey ya, and the latkes in herre

sooo funny