Please take a few minutes to read, a few minutes to help me understand. I dont know what I have left

[ngalaxytimmyo]

Seriously, what has happened to me over the past couple years. I can't explain the constant anger I seem to feel. The funny thing is most of it wouldn't have bothered me a short few years ago. I'm constintly dissapointing myself as well. I thought for awhile I was on top, when I really seemed to just be slipping down further. I feel like I can't

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[anonymous]

Being around someone with a drug addiction is really painful. It happens to smart people (the smartest person I have ever met). Its motivated from the same kinds of feelings you're talking about: feeling lost, lonely, out of place, whatever. Different people breed different perspectives, some resulting in unhealthy behavior. For instance, you may think of your body as something to care for. Others may think of their "soul" as something more worthy of their attention, or at least more difficult to ignore (they're chronically depressed or what have you). They may think that in doing drugs they're avoiding long-term effects such as suicide which, even if they care little about themselves, they know would be devastating to family and friends. As selfish as drug use may seem, there's so many angles you don't see. Sometimes pain is that deep. Maybe it is hard for you to put yourself into that position. Drug users may not completely sense the connection between mind and body and decide to provide nourishment for their mind, just to

[nikkylynn]

You're not alone when you say you go to school and dont talk to anybody. I dont either. It makes me feel like the whole schooling process is useless because I'm getting less interaction there than I do in the real world. But in the long run it will pay off, you'll have a well paying job and money does make happiness believe it or not.

You're logical in the saving the heart attack victim verses the drug addicted teen. If they're just going to return to their ways once let loose then whats the use when there's a man across the hall that could possibly be out doing good?

As for you not caring, if you didn't, who would you be? Not the Tim I barely know thats for sure.

Hey Tim, you know you got friends here for ya buddy

[anonymous]

Hey Tim, it's Chris. Long time no talk huh? Listen man, I just wanted to tell you that you definitely have all kinds of friends who still care a lot about you man. Whether it's those of us who've known you since elementary and middle school or those who you have befriended recently, you know we all hate to see you like this Tim

[pepperminta]

ok tim... i have a few things to say.
1)you're realizing from other people's mistakes(the drugged up low life's in er)which is making you grow up quicker.hence the frustration.
2)all of us in er feel the same way about the patients.ya know the crack head who calls a rescue run cause she has chest pain from smoking crack..more frustration.
3)as far as school.hank high sucks.98% of the ppl there are retards.i hate the watered down methods of teaching,the bull shit the staff puts up with from students.but im in the dearborn discount area....so not much room to talk there.

i guess that's all i have to say for now.oh and continue to push.school we be over in a blink.yea..follow your advise minta....

hey hun

[sweetbreebaker]

i miss you and i love you,
i think maybe i should bring you a cookie cake.
Whats your work schedule this week? i am coming home on Friday
I love you!

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[ltumetalgoddess]

maybe me and Bree can team up, and make you feel in a class room again, but we will also bring you cookie cake....

I dont know if you will even remotley know what I am talking about, but I honestly do understand where you come from. Starting from your job, to school, to a personal life that you cant seem to get all together because you are constantly making sure that everyone around you is alright..It hurts Timmy, and honestly there is nothing you can do about it..I mean i am 18, I am extremly sick, I was told I wont make you to see 20, I work full time so my mother can have a good home and pay $750 rent, and pay massive amounts of money for bills, and food. I am 18, I like to wear nice things, I spend money on me, and I hurt because I know that my house needs so much more. I go to school full time"if not more", and my life revovles around everything else but me..I love you Timmy, yes I have not seen you in a while, but you are constantly on my mind...