Please take a few minutes to read, a few minutes to help me understand. I dont know what I have left

[ngalaxytimmyo]

Seriously, what has happened to me over the past couple years. I can't explain the constant anger I seem to feel. The funny thing is most of it wouldn't have bothered me a short few years ago. I'm constintly dissapointing myself as well. I thought for awhile I was on top, when I really seemed to just be slipping down further. I feel like I can't

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[anonymous]

Seeing as most people didn't listen to your request to post anonymously, I might decide to reveal myself in the end of this comment. To address your schooling first, HFCC isn't a large campus school. People there probably don't want to be there just like you and so meeting new people when they don't want to be there or don't care who else is there is difficult. It sucks, I know and I don't mean to sound like an asshole. I'm not trying to be. Second, your job isn't the easiest one for a person to handle. A hospital is highly stressful but you don't need me to tell you that. You already know full well it is. I agree with you on which patient should get attention; the heart attack victim. Chances are high that the drugged up bitch will go and do it all again and then return to the hospital. Chalk it up to bad parenting or just a stupid girl. I see no reason why she should get sympathy when she will return to such an act

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[adidasqtpie10]

well i'm not going to break your heart. i'm not going to pretend i know exactly what you're going through, but i am in a similar situation. for almost 6 years i've been a major depressive with a history of disassosiative episodes suicidal temptations, obsessive compulsive disorder and i'm bi-polar. basically this means i'm in a depression. i know what it's like to not want to care to be angry all the time. i know it's hard, but i'm here for you if you ever need me. soccerkrisy@yahoo.com, 6163314228-dorm, 3133204994-cell. i love ya timmy. i miss ya too.
call me if u need me anytime even 3a.m.,
christie

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[ltumetalgoddess]

I dont know who you are, but thank you for this post, I dunno why I am thanking you, but all I know is that I am going through the same thing that you went through for six years...

There is a light somewhere right?

see . . .

[adidasqtpie10]

see timmy you've already got like 8 comments. every one of them supporting you and telling you how much people love you. believe me you have a lot left, you're stronger than you think. besiodes when start to not care you stop ffeeling emotions and it's hard to start feeling them again, believe me been there done that bought the t-shirt and it ain't fun!

[inn0cent_kisses]

I still luv you.

hey

[agentorsica]

well I wasn't going to post anything, but I wanted you to know that more people read what you say then you probably could've imagined. I know I don't know you that well, but I think you're an amazing person. Nobody at your age (or even mine) really have anything figured out. Don't get frustrated with everyday life, take it as it is and pass on the wisdom you're learning from your experiences.
As for the drug-addicts that you see come into the ER; I know that for most people you have to hit rock-bottom before you realize that you have a problem, before you actually get yourself help. Being in an ER with people trying to revive you is, for most, that. Try to be more optimistic about the lives you help to save, and maybe it'll help you to cope with some of the things you see. It takes a strong person to see what you see on an everyday basis, most people wouldn’t be able to handle it at all, I’d say you’re doing a pretty good job at it.
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