We were born in a time when if something was broken, we would fix it. Not just throw it away ( Read more... )

My life now has a beginning, a middle, and an end. Everything before was preamble. Now I have you. One day you will be gone, and my life will be over.

I wish I was a vindictive hard hearted bitch ( Read more... )

at least he talked to me today
but he still kept trying to say there is someone out there for me
I like internally want to scream
this was it
he was my everything
I will never have another person
There will never be anyone else
And I want him to stop lying to himself

I finally did it
I finally got my extra piercings
Trying to live a new life
But I am so tormented inside
I wished he was there to hold my hand
But I also liked the pain....
I like the constant numbing pain I feel now from them
The pain makes me feel alive
Like I exist outside of the numbness

Day 28 ( Read more... )

Day 28

I still love him
I still want him

What is wrong with me

Why does he think I'm over reacting about him leaving me?
Why doesn't he think it's a big deal?
Why does he think leaving me shouldn't break me?
Why does he think leaving me shouldn't crush my world?

jesus everything i count as loss ( Read more... )

Day 25

Made it

Late night musings...

How do I put my life back together in a world where he doesn't exist?

Almost 9 years of partnership
Almost 13 years of friendship
Gone

Thrown away like it was worthless

The worst part is
I just want my best friend back

Okay here it is. Your choice. It’s simple. Her or me. And I’m sure she’ s really great. But Hernando, I love you, in a really, really big - pretend to like your taste in music, let you eat the last piece of cheesecake, hold a radio over my head outside your window - unfortunate way that makes me hate you, love you. So pick me. Choose me. Love me ( Read more... )