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[niamani2]

I met a man over a year ago who touched me in a way that I had not experienced or had never allowed to move me before. His name is M. I still love him and he's been out of my life for over a year now. I took a risk and opened my heart to him because I could relate and he to me. I probably will never ever take that risk again to tell a man that I

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[lanajax]

man. crying at work. not fair... )=

[niamani2]

I'm sorry! I didn't mean to make anybody cry. It was supposed to be cathartic not pathetic.

[lanajax]

never pathetic. i was more crying for my poor baby. you were just done so wrong. )=

[aeroplanic]

That was so sad and heartfelt. You know, you and Lana are so similar in your honest writing. I like it a lot. Too many people just beat around the bush with the things they say instead of the things they really want to say.

And can I just say, the green bench needs a novel or movie about it. The number of great stories it could tell. :)

The Green Bench

[niamani2]

Sigh... oh the memories of the Green Bench. If wood could talk :)

[niamani2]

I steal all my writing style from Lana. She's the greatest, isn't she? Thanks for the compliment! You're so encouraging.

[rhoyalblu]

I am without words. It's beautiful to feel that way for someone and equally as disappointing that they don't feel it back...

Well I guess I wasn't completely without words.

[niamani2]

I wouldn't necessarily say he didn't feel the same about me. It was more he wasn't where I was in his life; and he felt too much pressure trying to match my lifestyle (not that I was pressuring him or anything; that was something he chose to do for himself). He said he didn't have anything to offer me and wasn't ready to be in a relationship since he was recovering. My sister said he wasn't "in to me" whatever the heck that means. I don't necessarily agree. The man couldn't keep his hands off me. Furthermore, whenever I was in his presence and their were other women around too, he would choose me. It was me who wanted more and I was being unfair to him because he wasn't ready. And I agree. No man should enter into a relationship with a woman when he has less than she has. That's just some codependency insanity waiting to happen. Today, I can appreciate him reminding me of that fact and saving me from ruining a memory that is still just as endearing as it was a year ago. Thanks :)