i don't know whether to celebrate this being my possible last night in preston, be sad cos it might be, be excited i might be moving or accept that im staying
i dont know what the fuck to do. and now i know i cant move in with people cos id feel so ridiculous if im gonna be sick like this for longer than i hoped :(
ffs
why is this so hard?
i should ( Read more... )

 jack just spent about 4 hours argueing with me. he really never gets it does he? i think i might just move now. if he's going to be hurtful and mad then i dont really need to stick around for it :( i love how everyone's honest with me years after knowing me, and i love how people say everything all at once when you really dont need to hear it

 tonight was so weird : / but i think it went well ( Read more... )

i'm so stuck :(

reasons to stay
jack, pia, claireys, hayley, lily, annabelle, holly, etc
i'd be nearer to katie
preston and pr1
my mum and charlotte and my cat :P
i'd be less broke/poor
doctor stuff

reasons to go
new start
independence
away from kate
nearer to anthony
no more doctors, noone ever has to know anything ever again and i'll be free
no more of kate's ( Read more... )

 there's a reason i haven't listened to hoobastank / make yourself for so long/many years ( Read more... )

i'm one step from a breakdown

pardon me whilst i just turn my back and walk away

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i cannot deal with this right now. 

 so..
reading fest 2008..

Soooo its that time of year again where camping, mud, mayhem and music are thrown all into one big dirty pile of fun lol!

I kicked it off on the thursday meeting up with ben, pat, louise, woody, justin, and mike and putting my stuff in my tent and having a few drinks with them.

Got a bit drunk and ended up running around the ( Read more... )