( I could have waited before posting this, but I can be unreliable, so it's up to you to not cheat )

I had a CT scan of the bit where the spine connects to the skull today. It was frightening, and I'm still frightened. I know this fear to be completely unreasonable, the truth will set me free (to make choices), not condemn me to something. The odds that my chronic headaches ever since I hit my head 6 months ago are due to something that wants ( Read more... )

Just when I thought I was being self-referential.

Now I remember why LJ has been a source of comfort. It's a place where introspection is OK, and introspection about introspection is something that the 'cool kids' do.

Yeah, I'm definitely having one of those posting frenzies that follow a long period of not writing anything. The current thought is that either I wasn't as good at communicating on LJ as I thought I was, or my skills have deteriorated from lack of use. Thinking about the fact that I've spent a large part of the last year being very successful in ( Read more... )

I read a little bit of my friends-list today, something that I haven't done for months. I've been trying to live in the world, instead of living in my head and in virtual spaces. Which sounds impressive, so long as I don't mention massive doses of computer games, pretty much every day. More to the point, I've been really really stressed, and ( Read more... )

Neurodiversity.

They're right.
She's awesome.

Here's an interesting meme, you say "Words!" to someone, and they give you five words. The deal is that you then have to write something about what those words mean for you. I should have known that saying this to rainsingingwolf would have given me an interesting challenge. I guess that's why I did it :)

Blue is the girl I never was, owing at least partly to ( Read more... )

Had dinner with my father on Friday night. Felt awful all of Saturday, and run-down today. Right now, I feel pretty good.

Pretty good, as these things go.

Dammit. I knew him. He was a good man. I was going to title this 'rest in peace', but one thing I can't imagine him doing is using being dead as an excuse to stop working for his goals. He told me that I had a responsibility for healing. One of the most shame-filled days of the 6 years since then was when I thought that I had failed to meet ( Read more... )