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I am Trying to Find myself......Have you seen me lately?
Life has been ...... to say the least. What doesnt Kill me makes me stronger.... I tThink that people who are served up steaming piles of shit have to believe this or the suicide rate would be much higher. OK so i am being a little dramatic,but to say the least I have had better times. I am trying to focus on the positives in life.Josh is in rehab ( Read more... ) -
Why am I such a nut......?
I feel crazy as usual.....I am feeling claustrophobic in my own skin. I just want top escape this place this world and this life. I constantly feel on the verge of tears and i cant seem to get a frim grasp of reality. I just want to disappear live in a cave. Just fall off the face of the earth for a while. I can tell the people around me don't know ( Read more... ) -
What Dreams may come?????
I just had an odd dream. I was in Michigan at my aunts house and my mom had died a few days before. A box cam e in the mail for me and when I opened it ..... It had all sorts of things from my past and my moms past. Little cards with all this writing on them. One said what I think about Life and death. That was all I saw before I was just so ( Read more... ) -
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i love pineapples now!
kurkatic here.
stranger once.... she's back.
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Anger fills my soul
I am so mad..... I don't know why. I just want to scream and cry and kick. I hate feeling like this. My mom went back to my stepsisters house yesterday. Now I have no way to contact her and no way to know how she is doing. I wish she would have just gone up north to my aunts.....grrrr. I am just so worried about her because she is not well and ( Read more... ) -
When life throws you lemons......You make lemonade
AHHHHH!!!! I am freaking out. My mom is having lung removal surgery tommorrow. I hope she makes it through it. My family here in Michigan are insane. I don't understand why all the focus is on Charlie not doing this for her or that for her. Come on people....why make her feel worse then she already does????? I don't know where my mom is going to go ( Read more... ) -
Wasting time..........
I leave in less then a week to return to where I am from...... AHHHHHH....... I can't breathe . Thats how I feel like I am gasping to keep in this clean pure air life nature love. I am in love. I don't want to be the 80 year old women wondering if I have failed at life because i didn't take that chance on the love of my life and that I made the ( Read more... ) -
You can never go back only forward
Awise man once said that to me.....haha ok it was my dad more a wise ass then a wise man if you ask me but same difference. It is 2 in the morning and I am still awake.... I can not sleep. I have so much on my mind. I am moving back to San Diego. Crazy. It makes me nervous. But over all I think this is the best desicion for me. I am just to straped ( Read more... ) -
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I am sooo sleepy i wish i could just go to sleep right now and wake up in the morning but I can't. I have to finish my laundry I should be cleaning my room but I am not. I cleaned most of the house today. But i am sure I wll have to do it again before Alissa comes. My arem hurts. The lady at the plasma place bruised the hell out of my arm.It looks ( Read more... )