So I had another magical marvelous epiphany tonight. I came to the conclusion, as I always do, that I have an ever present sleeping problem that actually increases my levels of depression and all around unhealthy mental state(s) of mind. I noticed how I stay up all night until 5, and 6 in the morning and realize that I have nothing important to do ( Read more... )

i now owe 2,110 dollars. to my parents. which I don't have.
for my car, which at the moment has a tipped right rear axel and bent hubcap due to the fucking weather hating my life and causing my car to hydroplane into a curb.
i love.
this.

so i'm gonna go kill myself now kay?

Alright. So I'm sure as all of you know, I never really update this ( Read more... )

i hate my friends.

bleh ( Read more... )

OKAY. So today was super interesting. This afternoon I went to Janice Jo's (hahah JOanns) to have my interview and it was great, the hiring manager liked my hours of availability and all that good stuff so I'm hired! FINALLY. I can make some moneys. It pays way better than my last job as well, so that is definitely something to look forward to. So ( Read more... )

Today was interesting..I got up thinking that my whole day was going to be one big rush and it wasn't.. And for some reason I just got really angry at myself, and had a lot of self confliction for some reason. It made me feel as if I was insane or had some mental disorder, because of the things that I do to myself when I get angry. 
I finally got to ( Read more... )

I deleted my myspace for the least amount of time possible. I can't even fathom why that feeling of need to get rid of it overcame me. I don't know what is going on. Lately I have been getting really frustrated about this and that. My job is falling apart because I am not selling enough and I cannot keep a good temper lately. Things are just going ( Read more... )

Long time no write. I haven't made the effort to update since I've been so busy lately. But to let all you know, those of you who still bother to check up on these sorts of things, not much has been going on lately. Aside from the usual routines and getting back into some old ones, it's essentially the same old same old thing going on with nick. ( Read more... )

So I don't know why, but lately I've been feeling left out of a lot of things. Maybe I'm missing something, or maybe I'm just out of town when these things happen? But I just don't feel like anyone ever makes an effort to get together but me. It just feels like whenever I'm available and haven't been working for days at a time nobody bothers to ( Read more... )