i cant believe im writing in this thing not that anybody will read it haha. Anyways . been thinking about things alot lately. Have u ever wanted to tell somebody how you feel but just couldnt do it? well thats how i feel right now and it sucks because ive known her for a long time now and im afraid of how she'll react , but i guess ill never know ( Read more... )

you have no idea....

I thought You knew, guess I assumed to much ( Read more... )

i dont know what to do anymore :( ive lost the best thing that has ever happened to me..if there is one thing i could change it woule to go back in time and change the way i acted to her after christmas :( i listened to my "best friend" and i shouldnt have.i pushed her away when i didnt mean to..i love her more than anything in this world and now ( Read more... )

well its been a couple weeks once again..nothing new has really happened..just when i think things are getting better..they get worse..and i dont know what to do..you would think after all ive been through and done..that it would mean something,but i guess im wrong :( I got to see allie the other day,she came over and we watched family guy :) i ( Read more... )

so today i started my real estate class..it was ok i guess..school is school lol..it was hard for me to concentrate because i have a certain individual on my mind all the time :) tomorrow is the fryeburg fait and i really want to go..like BAD haha. ive recently started to pray before i go to bed..which ive never done before..but i sure hope it ( Read more... )

well..heres an update on my life so far..im now single due to poor communictaion and listening to my friends when i shouldnt have..theres just to many reasons and im to blame for most of them.im not sure where things will go from here..but i still love her..alot :( I gave up alot to be with her and it was totally worth it..shes one of a kind,shes ( Read more... )

Holy christ its been a long tme since i wrote in this thing...and i realize that what i just said is overused by soooo many people lol.i guess im guilty..anyways..ive been pretty busy..im making new tracks and anxiously awaiting the arrival of my new keyboard that i ordered so i can get down to businees if you will..well im off to the mall..have a ( Read more... )

once again its been like 3 friggin months since ive written in this..but o well its all good i guess..last night allie and i went to see SIN CITY..it was pretty cool..i liked it because it was mostly black and white and pretty unique..it had like 4 different stories that each told a little bit more of the others and they all tied in somehow..i ( Read more... )

well its 7:06 in the morning and im getting ready to go to work..yahooo cant wait! not :( Im really glad i have wednesday, thursday and friday off though..i need it lol..ive been so tired all week. I need to go to the gym again..i havent been in like a week and a half...not good haha..im friggin slacking i guess..o well..what can ya do? Anyways i ( Read more... )