I am quite lost inside myself.

And I hate it.

I want more than this. More than being home alone on a Saturday night wishing it were 18 months from now and I was leaving this place for something potentially better.

Or will it still be like this then?

Is this really my life?

Was it all a lie?
You said these things to me
And sounded so sincere
So profound
Sounded like a conversation
I would remember
For eons

But now its dirty
Tainted by all that came after it
I can't believe that anything
You said to me that night
In my car
Was true

Because
Everything you said after
Turned out to be
A lie

Katie has invited me to go out to lunch with her 2 best friends from high school, Celeste and Dana. I'm actually pretty excited, not only because I get to eat some deliciously awful food at TGI Friday's, but because Katie actually thought of me to invite to go out to lunch ( Read more... )

Its unbelievable to me that its taken me this long to realize that she wasn't lying to me to make me feel better. She was lying to me to make herself feel better. If she didn't know what she was doing was wrong...why lie about it ( Read more... )

Starting school again hasn't been as excruciating as I expected so far...but we'll see how I feel by week's end ( Read more... )

...and it doesn't feel like it at all. I'm not even really that excited about it.

I'm going out for dinner and some drinks later...hopefully it will be fun.

I just wish some people had taken the time to wish me a happy birthday...but oh well. I'm just complaining.

...but I need somewhere that no one knows about (except a very select few ( Read more... )

you don't even know me
but feel the need to put me down
I understand that I may not be
as intelligent as you are

you've put a bitter taste in my mouth
for all things this city
all I really want is to tell you
how much of an ass you are

but I don't say things like that to people I've never met

I guess you're not the same

you use the anonymity to your advantage
but i still see through you
attention seeker
sad
and desperate

i've always been
interested
in the human psyche

i honestly could care less about you
but the way you think
never ceases to amaze me

its like you're lost in this endless circle
a dog chasing its tail
you'll never find what you want this way

"Maybe I'm Amazed"- Paul McCartney with Wings ( Read more... )