thanx anne i really am serious and i could use your help..matt told me he would support me.. we talked and he said whatever decision i make he is going to back me up...lol and he told me he had a morning boner this morning..... lol ohhhhh nooo i love you wayyyyyyyyyyyy more... totally!
And this is from your Xanga.
♥sat. ... i went to the beavoir house thing then went to eat with my grandparents...then i hung out with justin and harry and cripps....i got kinda messed up....well we all did...then i went to see matt to bring him his drugs i got...♥
So fuck it Nicole, I'm done. Don't say "It's harder than you think" Because people do it all the fucking time. Your making excuses. Like I said in your xanga, I don't care if you do drugs because I'm not a hypocrite, but don't waste my time asking for help.
You might think you need my help, but it looks like you don't really want it. I'm not mad at you for getting fucked up, I'm mad because I try so hard to be a good friend and when you throw shit back in my face like that, it makes me wonder why I even bother. I know it's hard, especially when everyone around you is into it. I didn't expect you to quit forever, but I didn't expect you to go and get fucked up the night after you were so determined to quit and asked me for help, especially after I told you not to unless you were serious. It makes me feel like you don't really give a shit, so why should I?
well if you were doing your job by helping me then i wouldnt have done it.. but dont try and make up now im over your bull shit.. u have issues.. you think your hot shit.. well i got something for you.. you have no idea how many fall backs a person trying to quit drugs has.. so u wouldnt be able to help me anyways.. im quiting yea.. but not cold fucking turkey! wtf do u take me for.. some magic fucking fairy... u getting mad at me is totally the opposite of helping... so u havent tried your hardest to be a good friend.. if you were trying then i wouldnt be so upset because you were upset with me for not being able to go cold turkey.. and i wouldnt want to get fucked up so bad right now!
She obviously doesn't have issues, what is she supposed to do follow you everywhere &slap the shit out of you every time you pick something up. You do drugs because YOU choose to do them. Because YOU want to. Don't blame it on her [expecially the fact that she's mad at you, you can't blame her for your drug problem], she's not in the wrong at all. I would be mad too, if you ask for her help it must be because you want it. How the hell are you supposed to not quit drugs cold turkey? If you're going to quit them, quit them. If you're addicted, GET HELP FROM SOMEONE WHO CAN HELP YOU. If it's as bad as you're making it out to be GET REHAB. If not, don't complain about it &don't get people involve &then hurt them afterwards. I'm sorry, but what you said really aggravated me a lot. I've read your entries &I don't know you very well but you are extremely immature &you need a lot of help. You have a ton of a lot of growing up to do. Which isn't a bad thing, but it takes a lot to believe in yourself. I don't know much about your life or
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Doing my job? I didn't know it was my responsibility to make sure you quit, I said I'd help you, not do it for you. You think I have no idea about fallbacks, That really means you don't know shit because I've quit drugs, and I did it straight up, completely cold turkey. The only shit I did after I quit was smoke cigarettes and drink on really rare occasions. And I never said I've never fallen back, because I have. And since when have I ever really thought I was hot shit? You're the one that always bitches at me because I always talk about how lame I am and you yell at me because I have low self esteem about everything about myself. I'm not upset with you for not doing it cold turkey, I even told you I wasn't mad that you did drugs. Don't blame not being strong enough on me. If you wanted to do it that bad, but then wanted my help so bad, you could have called or some shit. It's not like I knew you were out doing them. And it's not my fault I had to work instead of hanging out with you, it's not like you really wanted me
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thanx anne i really am serious and i could use your help..matt told me he would support me.. we talked and he said whatever decision i make he is going to back me up...lol and he told me he had a morning boner this morning..... lol ohhhhh nooo i love you wayyyyyyyyyyyy more... totally!
And this is from your Xanga.
♥sat. ... i went to the beavoir house thing then went to eat with my grandparents...then i hung out with justin and harry and cripps....i got kinda messed up....well we all did...then i went to see matt to bring him his drugs i got...♥
So fuck it Nicole, I'm done. Don't say "It's harder than you think" Because people do it all the fucking time. Your making excuses. Like I said in your xanga, I don't care if you do drugs because I'm not a hypocrite, but don't waste my time asking for help.
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