She online, i hate it when she is, her name all lit up in green. its ironic, Green the colour of envy, i envy everything around her, every spec of dust moved from her path as she types ( Read more... )

Lifes just bland now, my focus is gone, fuck it, i was going to try and tell you how i feel but i dont need long scentences, i dont need a theasaurus i can use words a five year old kid can and it will make my heart feel just as real, I miss her, I love her, I need her. This is shit.

Derin brown has just stoked me again, he made astudent beleive he couldnt see him, he made himself invisble to this guy, and scared the shit out of him, like with dancing dolls, moody lighting and everything , it was sooooooooo fucked up, possibly the most fucked up things ive ever seen, as it was most definately real.

its not been a very posty day really, not compared to yesterday anyway. ive been too busy really, i have realised that i was a little unsure about my up and coming (monday) photography exam ( Read more... )

Pictures of my baby, sorry about the quality they’ve been scanned , printed and scanned again, it’s a long story.

I took these with 100 speed black and white film (ilford pan)

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Putting this whole situation to the back of my mind and looking on the bright side is so tiring, im nackerd from it, because im constantly thinking about why its happening every second is taking longer than a minuter should ( Read more... )

I dont have a job anymore, thnks to last night. we left the car at the pub and he locked the gate we didnt know he had and wouldnt let us have the car so callum and Iain had to stay at mine. I thought they were good people there, david is just another cunt. havent even thought about what im gonna do for money, i dont have a penny to my name ( Read more... )

Fuck life.
Fuck People.
Fuck relationships.
Fuck the internet.
Fuck exams.
Fuck growing up.
Fuck David.
Fuck work.
Fuck illness.
Fuck money.
Fuck manipulation.
Fuck the human race.
Fuck america.
And fuck you.

I sent her an email, i did it, i risked it and i got this back ( Read more... )

i think ill talk to my friends about it, theve given me good advice today, and then decide, at least i think louise is reading my jounal still so i guess she must know what im thinking.