ryans taken to using the beat of our forever off balance washing machine as a beat to sing ramsteins du hast. every time i do a load of laundry i get serenaded with quasi german/gibberish lyrics while goon stomps around head banging. it almost makes the sassy potty mouth bullshit that seems to constantly stream from her bearable... almost.

how is it one can sleep past noon and still be tired? goon didn't bother waking me because we got her a samsung chromebook and i fixed it so she can read ebooks on it, so she was plowing her way through the pile of new books i'd put on there ( Read more... )

for the time in awhile i'm doing my "fuck yeeeeaaaahh" dance. new carpet is in. it was less than fun while it was being installed but i no longer give a shit about that. it's beautiful. it doesn't smell like dog. it's brilliant. i have unpacked all but 3 or 4 boxes. scott installed the tv wall mounts and the tvs are now on them. this means two ( Read more... )

today was hot here. it sucked. i was bored for most of it. scott slept most of the day and hockey has been on the tv all day. i went out to the store and bought a ton of fruits and veggies, yogurts, and other cool stuff to eat because fuck the oven. i got a pineapple and ate a huge portion of it without breaking out into blisters in my mouth and it ( Read more... )

carpet is being installed monday. scott says he'll stay home from work and i'm grateful. he's always asking me "why didn't you ask for help!??!" well, it because i figure his good will is like a meter bar on a video game. am i gonna burn up that meter bar up for little shit that's merely difficult or uncomfortable? fuck no. i'm banking it for when ( Read more... )

ps. next person to tell me "aww it's okay. everything will be alright" gets field dressed like a deer. NO. everything is most certainly NOT fucking alright. alright for you maybe but i'm the one who has to deal with the fall out for YEARS. YEARS more of living in a space too small. YEARS more of ryan being in a school that places more value on ( Read more... )

oh gawd... ryan didn't get in to AOC... fuck. i'm so disappointed. goon is going to be crushed. all the fucking straight A's and awards in the worlds won't do her any good if she's denied the opportunity to do anything useful with it.

i really hope the carpet guy calls me back soon. i moved all the boxes off the ground that i could but the garage is full of the new furniture and we can't put it in the house till the new carpet is in.

the utterly overwhelming disappointment has faded a tad. buying a shit ton of stuff helps along with the check the loan office owner wrote us. we said "fuck it" and got a new bed, 2 night stands, and a gel memory foam mattress from thomasville. then we went to homedepot and bought a big stainless steel fridge with ice maker and a convection ( Read more... )

we lost the house. there's nothing that can be done.