geeez. I need to get back in school. I want to be on something right now, so I may go out and get some coffee. I really want to just take some e and lie back through the afternoon and coalesce through feeling and sunlight. I'm freaking bored.

A friend of mine at work learned wednesday that she is having a child. This scares me so much. I don't want to be like her, stuck forever in this shit of a job, because my fertility or momentum has screwed me. I've even settled into my work enough that I have begun to despise everyone that patrons us. I don't want to help them. I like seeing ( Read more... )

I'm so damn frustrated ( Read more... )

Waiting- why be so agonizing?

I think I am drifting again.

HOWEVER-

I think I see some evidence, or rather, opportunities to take this drifting and enjoy it.

I feel like I've fallen under water.

I think I really do need to detox. And be sincere about it. Drugs just aren't mixing well with my body, and damn, but my body is screaming to get me to notice. A ridiculous amount of harsh coke, all up my nose ( Read more... )

OW.

I realized the other day that the modern art movement- i.e., the desire of nouveau artists to break with the old schemata of what is 'art', something like that- is the difference between derived intentionality and intrinsic intentionality. To quote Daniel Dennett,

(Long quote)

Intrinsic intentionality is the aboutness of our thoughts, our ( Read more... )

LA is so toxic ( Read more... )

I have just seen that they also cut the mountain ash down to nothing. I feel ill.