Comments | nightcookie: I Have To Stop

nightcookie

I Have To Stop

Feb 14, 2005 00:40

I need drugs, I need speed. I'm addicted. I have to quit. Like 3 days ago my boyfriend was doing a deal. He said I could not have any of the product. I argued, got pissed off, begged him to get someone else to drive him, because I just can't be around speed without doing it. He went inside to do the deal, while I sat in my car. I was feining like ( Read more... )

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You need to stop now. anonymous February 14 2005, 20:34:28 UTC

I've been keeping my voice in a long time, even though there were other times where I mentioned things to you that you've cleared your head of by now. And I don't blame you, I don't really hate you. But you hanging out with dangerous extremists? Bad people? Sleeping with them, asking them for favors at your life's sake..? It's for nothing. The people who truly care for your life don't want to see you this way. I've been around for years, hearing about troubled friends and therapists, and your puppies and your education, still caring about when you'll see the real good times. While I'm no longer existing in the current world of yours. The people you know who are destructive like this, need to stop also. Sex, and blood, and chemical dependency, mark another A-Bomb to coincide with the expansion of heaven. Trying to cancel out your peace of mind. I see the troubled children of every generation as the soldiers of a long and dramatic war. You confided in me about how unfair the world was all those years ago, and then you slid away into the ( ... )

Re: You need to stop now. nightcookie February 25 2005, 00:51:22 UTC

Thank you for what you've said to me. I knew all along that what I was doing was total stupidity. I've been sober for around a month now. I do feel better now. I finally just thought to myself, how stupid could I be?. He doesn't give a crap about me *my EX boyfriend*. I found a hickie on his neck, so that leads me to the conclusion that he's fucking around with his baby's momma. I think all I was, was just a good fuck, a ride, money, and someone to get fucked up with. *Sigh*, that depresses me though, because I must just be trash to him, but his baby's momma is so much better than me. Fuck it, it really doesn't matter to me too much. I am better off without him. It's alright being single, I am free again. My pets are my companions. Who needs guyz? I'd rather of traded him in for a puppy dog. Yeah, life is a little better now and I'm more in control of it too. *hugs* Thanks...-Cookie

ophelia_w February 17 2005, 09:54:54 UTC

Wow, you go through a lot. All I can say is that I think your boyfriend is not good enough for you. Plus you need to get help with your addictions. Please get help. You can get out of this if you try. ♥

nightcookie February 25 2005, 00:53:51 UTC

I've brought one addiction down and that's all that matters to me. Drugs suck ass. I'm not good enough for anything, but neither was he. He could never make me the happy person I thought I would be with him...-Cookie

anonymous February 19 2005, 16:33:02 UTC

PLease please please seek help. I accidentally stumbled on your website, just out of curiosity typed anorexia websites and am in a state of shock as to the so called communities of anorexic people. The community of destruction. Giving tips on how to purge. Like that's support. This is like a religious sect, man ( ... )

nightcookie February 25 2005, 01:09:54 UTC

I do know some communities that aren't all bad that are eating disorder based, but are pro choice. People who want to lose a few lbs or want to learn how to get an eating disorder are not admitted to these groups. We don't exactly always talk about eating disorders. We vent, we cheer eachother up, talk about daily life, but of course eating disorders do come up, but we do not encourage anyone. In fact we want others to get better, but some of us are just reluctant to quit, so somebody has to be there that can relate untill we finally decide when it's time to stop. It probably seems stupid to you, but it's probably really hard for you to see from my point of view. I'm pretty level headed for an eating disordered individual. I know that I don't make wise decissions sometimes, well, maybe most of the times. I know I have a problem, there's no denying that. I know alot of my choice are unhealthy for me. I am ugly as hell though, at least I feel ugly, and that's what matters to me. I just want to hurt myself, so I can get what I feel I ( ... )