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Apr 02, 2005 00:01

Long time no write...Well, right now I'm extremely pissed and depressed. I've gotten 2 tickets in my car in a months time. One for going 88 mph in a 65 mph and not wearing a seat belt, second for not "completely" stopping at a stop sign. At least I fucking yielded, I coulda just flew through it! Fortunately I was able to shove my seat belt behind ( Read more... )

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Hey KID anonymous April 2 2005, 13:25:26 UTC
I'm concerned. Hey I noticed all of your entries are entered late @ night or early in the morning. Try and get some sleep maybe that will help. You know what's funny I'm working on a Psycology project about BDD Body Dismorphic Disorder, and your journal popped up. I think that you dont have an eating disorder or BDD. I think you have some underlying problem that caused a drug addiction, then you learned about eating disorderes and wanted to inflict yourself with more pain. Only read like you last few entries but hey... thats what I got. You journal is so cool. I think I may get one, and I pray for you sister. Hey we just got a new dog today, and that made my brother and sister really happy, maybe you should go pick up a stray.

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Re: Hey KID nightcookie April 14 2005, 00:26:14 UTC
Actually, here I go, back in the day...Drugs were the last thing to come. First it was depression *noticeable around 9 yrs old*, then a mixture of poor self image/esteem/small diet probably started because I thought I needed to be healthier and to me at the time, I thought healthy = skinny *around 12 yrs old*. After that I dove straight into an eating disorder *13 years old*. I had no idea about eating disorders untill after I went into my crash diet and started searching to web for any thinspiration I could get. Drugs didn't start untill at least a year after my eating problem, I hated pot cuz it made me hungry, I loved speed and coke for weight loss, but I loved the euphoric feeling of my uppers too. I don't see the fatest cow in the world in the mirror, I just feel fat and since I hate my piece of crap self, I suppose I'd rather do something about that fat feeling than just sitting on my ass all day popping potato chips...I do kinda overeact when I don't see my bones, at least 2-3 of my ribs, my wrist, and my collar bones have to ( ... )

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I got a journal... I got a journal... I got a journal... hey hey hey carmel_cuteness April 2 2005, 14:00:37 UTC
I have a journal... thanks to you. You inspired me. Im the above(Anonymous... The END... Fin

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Re: I got a journal... I got a journal... I got a journal... hey hey hey nightcookie April 14 2005, 00:27:09 UTC
Hey, cool, I gotta go check it out!! Thanks *hugs*...-Cookie

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cmage_88 April 2 2005, 17:47:47 UTC
Sounds like your Reliant's not very reliant.... >.>'

[/bad joke]

Feel better. :)

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nightcookie April 14 2005, 00:28:53 UTC
Ha ha, your so original :) ...When are you gonna call me butthead :) ...-The
Cookie Of Death, *buh ha ha* *hugs*

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cmage_88 April 14 2005, 04:33:00 UTC
Oooo, I'll write it in my agenda, and then I won't forget. *O*

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anonymous April 3 2005, 19:30:36 UTC
Hey, it seems to me your doing GREAT since my first entry. Yeah, the cops suck and all, but as long as you don't kill anyone, it is a much better kind of trouble to be in than drugs and cutting and eating disorder. Hey, your wound healed. Yay! You are not doing drugs since January. How great is that?!!!!!! And you are eating!!!!!!! I am so proud of you ( ... )

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nightcookie April 23 2005, 11:44:36 UTC
I'm not happy for doing great, great is bad to me, although I agree 100% that drugs were not for me. Well I did smoke some pot around 2-3 weeks ago, not very addictive, rather boring, but it makes ever stupid thing seem funny. I would be cutting, but it's no fun if it's not my wrists, which would be unacceptable at work. If I get too depressed, I always have my legs to inflict some bloody pain. Your right, cops do suck. I don't want to hurt anybody by speeding. I know, I know, I could hurt somebody on accident, but I kinda keep it a little down low in town, pluss go really slow on small side streets and corners, although I still speed, but that's only because our speed limits are outragesly slow, most cities have alot higher speed limits, but our wonderful reserved town/city could not bear to see anyone go faster than 20-30 mph. I don't really mind that I work at McDonald's, it's just fun to complain about, cuz it sucks to work, pluss it's a fast food joint, which makes me very misplaced. At least I have a job *wupee*. I love my car ( ... )

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