By The Way I'm A Slacker

[nightcookie]

Just one more day or I'm gonna get pissed at live journal. They have one more day or I'm gonna GET PISSED AND....well, I guess nothing...It sucks being one of the little people in the world. I'm gonna check my e-mail and see if they replied to my bitchy ramblings. By the way, I WILL REPLY TO EVERYONE, I'm so sorry, I'm so caught up in alot of shit

Comments

[cmage_88]

It's hard for people to be anorexic, I'd wager. How many people do you see doing it? o.O'

I want replyses! ^_^

[nightcookie]

There are a hell of alot of good anorexics, I've never met them, nut seen them on the net and in institutions
He he, at first I thought you said you like relapses!! Those kick ass, well, not for other people, but for me. Lol, that makes no since. Vixen and I think relapses kick ass. I've seen quite a few people doing it, mostly on the web, but I've met my fair share in the real world too, especially in psycho wards, but I've know at least 2 in our small city, big town. Too bad Vixen is moving far away from me :( ...She was my bestest buddy, we can totally relate to eachother, somewhat....*sigh*, now I'm sad again...

[cmage_88]

You gonna tell me who Vixen is? o.O'

[mourning_angel]

*hugs*

i need to return to ana

sigh
i ate not being so

[nightcookie]

No you don't, please don't. You know it was miserable. I know it's miserable, but I don't like myself, I don't care about my body, I don't really know why I do it. Just because I have something to lean on I guess. Do I sound very happy? I'm not. I want you to stay happy girl *hugs*, you deserve it.

[mourning_angel]

hmmm.. ana was the only thing that i have thats constant.. shes given me every love ive ever had.. and when ive turned away from her ive lost every love ive ever had.. so yea.. i need her back.. my happyness depends on it.. me and lil are falling apart and i dont know how to stop it :( at least thtats what it feels like!!!!!

[anonymous]

Nightcookie, I can't understand you. Do you want people to care or not? Initially I felt sorry for anorexic people and wanted to understand a little better what is it that lands a person in anorexia. So, I started the internet search with some empathy for anorexics. Then, I found pro ana sites and was discusted and completely shocked. Then your site comes up, and I'm shocked even more. So my first thought is 'these folks are severely disturbed, just leave this and lead your own life and mind your own business, you can't change anything'. But the second thought was: 'but isn't that the easy way out? isn't this what everyone does?' I have just recently been in trouble myself. It is a different kind of trouble, but I was lucky because there was someone who cared. So I thought 'what if it is now my turn to care? what if finding Nightcookie wasn't an accident?' And so I decided 'ok. I can't change the world, but I can maybe try to help one person', and so Nightcookie, you then became my business and ever since I have been reading your

[nightcookie]

I'm so sorry I passed your coments, I really am, I never knew I did. I wish I didn't. I feel so bad for making you feel bad. I don't mean to hurt anybody, I don't want to period. I don't know what I do anymore. I think I do something, but I don't, or I do something, I think I didn't, so I do it twice. I'm so disorganized, it's my fault, but I need to fix the thing I'm doing that is causing all this trouble, but I'm not sure where to begin or maybe even what it is. I guess I could begin by sleeping at night, waking up in the morning...Organize my life, yeah, that would help. Easier said then done. It seems so simple, but it's hard to stay on a schedule, once it breaks again, it takes forever to refix it. I don't know, maybe I'm making escuses *sigh*. I don't know if I want to be cared about. When I think about it, I hate being cared about, but it makes me feel better when someone does, but I want to be able to hurt myself and that fucks everything up. Maybe it's better that I stay away from people. I want to be able to talk and have

[anonymous]

Honey, don't apologize. You didn't hurt me. I am fine

[mourning_angel]

pro ana is a lifestyle.. anorexia is a disease hun, their is a difference.. pro ana's are wana-be's who think its cool.. anas are seriously messed up..

that said.. i fall somewhere in the middle of the two.. i know its dangerous.. but their are times i cant help it.. im driven to it.. and exept for the one time ive ran a chat room i dont often have much to do with pro ana..

[devilish_fetish]

*hugs* I know how you feel hon. I really do. I feel the same way.