Everybody Hates Me

[nightcookie]

God, everbody hates me, I don't know why, but they do... I must have "HATE ME" in bold letters on my forehead. Well, I guess I should back up my everyone hates me story. You see, I got sick at work a little less than a week ago. I was ok all day untill I took some dieretics for that horrid time of the month. Soon after that I got nauseated and so

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Live a Great Life

[anonymous]

Ashley, and you others who are reading this (friends of Ashley or passers by), the other Anonymous commenter is about right. You have to know what love is truly all about first. You're going to take hell for knowing. I tried to love Ashley and make some Anonymous comments. I didn't get treated back for it. People pretty much treated me as though I should be dead in some situations. I've confronted her and others about their convictions to this extreme dieting, the swearing, the drugs, their smoking and drinking, and about sex, and they do absolutely nothing in return. Where is my support? Where is the support for the other Anonymous people who didn't want you to commit suicide and still don't. We don't get loved. In fact, we likely get loved far less. And some of us try to worship God (who is being generally outcast and misrepresented through cults and the media and bad preachers and the ignorant masses of society), and Jesus Christ, and other truly great human beings. Yet that doesn't get respected, and we get outcast for that. My

Re: Live a Great Life

[nightcookie]

Don't be hurt. I like you. I wish the Anonymous users would stop being anonymous. How am I supposed to support someone I don't even know. I say thank you for your support, but I don't know what to say to someone that is just telling me to stop in a brief paragraph. I don't know if you read this, but I've mentioned it before. I don't know if I wana get better, I don't like it that'd I'd let my piece of crap self have a moments bliss, yet sometimes my other side comes out wanting to be free from this misery. I'm just a contridiction, should I die, should I live, should I allow myself to be happy or should I leave my ugly self in my depression. I just don't know, and I'll just keep stumbling through life untill I figure out for myself what I want/should do. I'm not forcing anyone to read this. This is my life, it's what it is, I can't rewire my brain into something that everyone would like better, it's simply my thoughts. I have my morals. I do try somewhat to keep in mind the ten commandments. I'm sure I could be alot worse. Notice I

Re: Live a Great Life

[anonymous]

Sorry I gotta be anonymous this time but I'm at work and I'm skiving a bit. Just wanted to say, that I understand every feeling and everything you said here. I am 37 and have lived with depression for about 20 years now. It seems to have got worse as I get older and sometimes I feel optimistic about life and sometimes I just want to give in and let the depression wash over me and surrender to it. I like your blog, you can write. You've gotta a good eye for just saying what you want and detailing something that sounds pretty simple in terms of it being an eventful happening but which manages to sum up the total vibe that you happen to be on that day. Sometimes I don’t know if I want to get better in the sense that in some ways I am "comfortable" in the pain my depression causes. I know it, I know how to ride it sometimes and it’s me and all I've known for a long time. Then other times I am sick to death of myself or the pain becomes too much and I want to end it all. I don’t know if I believe that life is even supposed to be happy

[ana_princess_31]

cookie, soz your having such a bad time at that moment, things will work out. "hug"

- willow

[nightcookie]

Thanks girl *hugs*