Comments | nightcookie: I Want To Die

nightcookie

I Want To Die

Jun 02, 2005 15:05

I want to die, I don't know if I actually wana die, but it feels like I am dieing anyways, for better or for worse. I HURT SO BAD!! I don't know what to do. No body here is gonna help me. No one is going to save me from myself, especially not myself. I doubt that will ever happen. I feel so empty, on fire, like I'm having my insides crushed by a ( Read more... )

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Hope you are feeling better anonymous June 2 2005, 13:39:30 UTC

Give your problems to God. Only HE can help you. I will pray for you though. I am an adult and I remember feeling like you when I was a teenager. Things always get better - they really do. Hope you are feeling better.
God Bless YOU!!!

Re: Hope you are feeling better nightcookie June 8 2005, 23:02:42 UTC

Thank you, I do feel a little better now. :)

anonymous June 2 2005, 15:33:18 UTC

good grief!!! just reading your journal makes me sick!!!!! would you please stop feeling sorry for yourself!!!! Is that all you think about is yourself???? Me this, me that, fuck her, fuck him, pay more attention to me me me me me me me me me! you're whole life revolves around you and it is nothing but boring already. It's no wonder you have no friends. Grow up and start taking RESPONSIBLITY for your actions. You are just to fucking lazy to take that responsibility but I tell you, that is where you have to start putting your life back together. get a grip! EVERYONE has problems - much worst than yours!!!! NOBODY EVER SAID LIFE WAS FAIR YOU UNGRATEFUL, BONEY ASS BITCH!!!!!!!!GET USED TO IT !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

anonymous June 3 2005, 08:44:52 UTC

Geez, why are you getting so worked up? This is her journal, her thoughts. She can write what she wants. That's the beauty of having a journal. It's life from your own perspective. Journals are about the people who write them! No matter how you feel about what she thinks and feels, just keep in mind it's HER journal about HER life and that she's not writing it for YOU or to make YOU happy.

nightcookie June 8 2005, 23:38:06 UTC

Wow, thanks for that *hugs* :) ...

nightcookie June 8 2005, 23:26:30 UTC

Your such a dumbass, this is umm..my journal? You know what a journal is for? Oh yeah, to write about how a certain someone feels about their life and the people around them. I don't feel sorry for myself, because I am smart enough to know that there are people out there that actually have a reason to be unhappy. My parents bitch out eachother, aren't very loving, sometimes forget about me, I didn't have friends for some reason, well because I was scared to make friends. I thought I would lose them in the end, so what was the use. I was too quiet and shy, but all that crap is no reason for me to feel the way I do. If I was an asshole who obviously never felt the way I do, then I think I'd react the same way. By the way, who says I don't take responsibility for my actions? I admit it when I'm wrong or did something wrong. I can find many faults with myself, many, many, but I am not lazy. I work hard for what I have, including my friends. I feel so lonely all the time. Sometimes it feels like there's nobody anywhere, it FEELS that way. ( ... )

anonymous June 2 2005, 15:37:52 UTC

Do you realize you used the word "I" 33 times in your paragraph? Maybe if you quit focusing on yourself so much you would be happier.

nightcookie June 8 2005, 23:34:25 UTC

Oh My God, are you that stupid? My Journal= My Thoughts= I have to start my sentences with I, because they are my thoughts? Get it? Your right though, I do use I too much. When I was in school they always told us *My classmates and I*, that you should not use I too much or it makes your paragraph blah. Well, at least I have more important things to do besides count how many times someone uses "I" in their journal entries...

anonymous August 14 2005, 15:31:54 UTC

Why don't you leave her alone? If she's expressing thoughts about HER, how do you want her to talk about them?!

cmage_88 June 2 2005, 18:48:03 UTC

Hey, if you don't want those depressing anonymous people replying, make it so you only get comments from your friends or people who are logged in. :)

*huggles*

cmage_88 June 3 2005, 00:15:20 UTC

And constantly complaining about being fat is not depressing? How about isolating yourselves completely from the outside world so that no ray of reason reaches you ana lovers and than when you lose every sight of sanity you can complain how no one understands you? Oh, why do I care, it's your funeral.

cmage_88 June 3 2005, 08:47:03 UTC

I'm not ana, nor am I depressed. It's just that you don't have to read Ashley's LJ, so don't complain when it's your choice to do so. If you don't want to read it, then don't.

cmage_88 June 3 2005, 08:47:51 UTC

Don't you have anything else to do than to read journals from people with EDs and complain about them? Why are you here? What do you care?

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