About Time For AnUpdate

[nightcookie]

Well it's been at least two months since I've updated this journal, which is for me, so I guess I'll get some shit out, because I can. After I left off, I needed some drugs, oh yeah! Well I remembered someone who used to hook me up when I was around 16 yrs old. We had a deal, as long as I let him drive my car, he's like 1 to 2 yrs younger than me,

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Defeating the Demons, Don't Be Fooled

[anonymous]

You're still into this nightmare, and haven't sought God, even after the serious wars in the East, and the hurricanes that recently happened in your country? You're not scared enough to drop your life and start clean? That was part of the point, to scare you into abandoning your destructive way of life. Where is your time to mourn for others, when you say you mourn for animals, yet they mourn for you, that you should really set an example for that boy about what it means to be the good side of human? You have with your voice and with your actions, the ability as a human being to overwhelm another living thing. Can you not use your possibilities for good, in kindness and respect and nurturing, instead of destroying? I understand the pain that resides in you. I go through it often, every day. I have nothing in the physical world though, and if I did I would not keep it forever, and I may as well be a drifter wandering through the desert. But... it is that I care about mankind's thoughts and actions, and God and myself, not to let the

Continued - Don't forget

[anonymous]

Don't ruin yourself. There is still much for you to know about this world and God, that you haven't traveled to all the beautiful places, that God hasn't shown you the past and future that can be in your time. Can you say that you've given him a chance, or have you only spoken with your own conscience in the darkness

One more thing, child

[anonymous]

I read some of your messages, because I haven't been here in quite some time

Re: One more thing, child

[nightcookie]

I'm sorry, I didn't mean to hurt anyone. I just wanted to put up a journal. Nobody needs to get dragged into my stupidity. My journal is my stupidity for all to read. I know you wana help me and that makes me feel good, yet it makes me sad, because I don't want help. Thanks for caring, I love people who have the heart to try and help and I hate little jerks like myself that deny help, but this is what is going to happen, I am going to just live. For better or for worse. I want to screw up, I want to see what happens, and I know I'm stupid, I'm gonna be bothered by myself, my opionions, I'm gonna hurt...

miss you

[anonymous]

Cookie....It's Heidi. I miss you. How are you? It's been months since I last heard from you. Email me sometime. heid20@aol.com.
Love ya and miss ya, Heidi

Your mad

[anonymous]

I know life can be hard, some of my friends have had real messed up lives. But what the hell are you doing with yours, you are so messed up its unreal.. Some one needs to show you what is actually going on in the world because it makes you look pitiful.....

Re: who da hell are you to talk?

[anonymous]

who the hell are you to come on here and call us mad well all have problems and there is nothing better then to be able to write it down and share you thoughts feelings and fears WITHOUT being judged by people that don't understand if we wanted to be picked on and singled out we would go with telling the world but we are here talking sharing with people that share the same pain and are not going to treat you like shit because you have a pain that you like to hide