ok so maybe spring break helps me with the whole rebirth thing, but ive decided its absurd to be sad about things that were and it is impossible to have a satisfying present and future if one does so ( Read more... )

i wish if he wanted nothing to do with me that he would just say so and then i could cry myself to sleep a couple nights in a row and begin to heal. i've been reopening old wounds just to make sure they still hurt. they do. and i can't let go ( Read more... )

so parade finished last week. it was a success but a huge pain in the ass during tech week. i had a minor meltdown 2 days before opening night over spike tape, but otherwise everything went quite well and the show was well received. the running crew was so adorable too. it was all freshmen who were really fun and sweet. they bought me and the rest ( Read more... )

i got out of parade rehearsal tonight at 8:30. awesome ( Read more... )

i would rather import cds and do this crap than do stuff i really need to do like pack and do my laundry ( Read more... )

got home from my less fun trip to florida. we had a service for my grandma on saturday and buried her ashes at bosque bello cemetery in fernandina beach. the service itself didnt get me sad so much as coming back yesterday and visiting the site, seeing the flowers and a pile of dirt. she's in the ground now and thats the end of it. i've felt like ( Read more... )

happy new year ( Read more... )

my skin is so effing dry. damn winter. thank god i get to get rid of you for the lump sum of winter break ( Read more... )

merry christmas a day late ( Read more... )

i think my brain is dead. my science final killed it. which is tragic because i still have all my stage management stuff to do for class.....plus study for the final on monday and my take home final for dramatic cri due tuesday ( Read more... )