I was quite shocked to find that my old livejounral account was still active. I had given up hope on retrieving it, and created a journal on Blurty. I never liked the name of "Blurty", so I'm quite glad to find this account. Anyhow, I've been re-posting my significant posts on Blurty to here, which is why I have a few long entries posted all in ( Read more... )

Another night here at this lonely outpost of humanity, and I find myself awake at nearly 3 am...not doing much of anything, except thinking. Which is something I tend to do more than some may realize, which could be considered a negative aspect of my life. It becomes very clear to me at these hours that there are certain issues in my life in which ( Read more... )

Another night here at this lonely outpost of humanity, and I find myself awake at nearly 3 am...not doing much of anything, except thinking. Which is something I tend to do more than some may realize, which could be considered a negative aspect of my life. It becomes very clear to me at these hours that there are certain issues in my life in which ( Read more... )

After a couple months of work and lost time, the play is finally coming to a close. Tomorrow stands the last performance, and I think I will be quite relieved. I have enjoyed the experience, and certainly do not regret it, but it has taken an enormous chunk of my summer. I am tired. It is unfortunate, however. We haven't had any enormous audiances ( Read more... )

Many people who are often complimented on being kind and having a good heart reject the statements. They say that they aren't so nice on the inside, that their inner thoughts are darker and more ill-driven than what they actually do. When this was discussed with a few people during an Independence Day gathering, I had a definate response. It is the ( Read more... )

werd up

I feel like I'm trapped in a cage, like I'm in prison...everyday is almost the same thing, and the sad part is it doesn't really have to be that way, I'm on summer vacation and I've got a license...certain things are holding me back and I'm being smothered. I don't know how much longer I'm gonna be able to put up with it.

Woe be unto the olden of age who remain as infants in mind...I'm becoming impatient now, grduges are bad, anger because the truth hurts is bad, lying to yourself is very bad. Bye!

Once again I am reminded that many minds fool themselves with bitter distortions of the truth that suit their bidding...and through this often times amplify complications in my life as well as others. I grow quite weary of such childish games, espically from those who should have far exceeded this point in their mind. It seems that even those ( Read more... )

I woke up and felt like my head was going to explode, luckily it did not. Yet again I was woke up by the phone ringing, unfortunately my body did not respond and once more I failed to answer...most likely was just MCI again, I think they are stalking me now.