so im freaking out. the doctor just called. its been a month since my appointment. and she just calls now to tell me i had an abnormal pap smear. now i have to go in for a cervical byobsy. everyones telling me not to worry. but i cant help it. my mom and almost all her sisters had cancer. my mom had a hysterectomy in her 30's. my sister and my ( Read more... )

just a quick up date...things are going great! for once! my love life is amazing..ken is the one ive been searching for all my life (corny i know, but i cant help how i feel) things are so different with him then with my ex. i think, i can see us going somewhere in the future. it just feels right with him ( Read more... )

well..i guess its about time i update. for those of you who dont know, i wont be returning to school. there are alot of reasons behind it and i just think im not ready right now. i actually have been looking into getting my associates degree with early childhood development or behaverial science. havent quite figured that much out. I always thought ( Read more... )

well..just a short update..since nothing has really changed. I might have another job, at Sweetser, working in a group home with kids ages 4-18. the only thing that sucks, its a 3rd shift postion. so i would be working there thursday-sunday 3rd shift and the other days at John Murphy homes during the day. its gonna fuck with my sleeping schedule, ( Read more... )

well i guess i should update. not to much going on. not really working right now which really sucks. was able to pick up 24 hours last week. but i dont work again till the 28th which really sucks. on the good side. i might have a job at Sweetser making 10.80 an hour, the shitty part, its an overnight position. but whatever i need the money. so im ( Read more... )

so can i just say last night was one of the scarest nights i have had. the party was great..up till the end. anthony and i went to bed, hes in the bathroom and im laying down watching tv when i hear people yelling. both anthony and i bolt downstairs. all i see is my friend jeremry with blood running down his face. and anthony, brandon,dee outside ( Read more... )

im beginging to wonder if i should even go home. maybe ill run away for the summer. it just doesnt seem like anyone even cares that im coming home, especially anthony. never once has he said, I cant wait to see you. it just makes me feel like crap i always tell him how much i cant wait to hang out and see him, and all this stuff and i never really ( Read more... )

well, i went home last night. My grandfather passed away. it was my real fathers, father. It took a lot of debating on if i even should have gone because i havent seen that side of the family since i was like 10? and i havent seen my father since i was like 6. but in the end, i ended up going. I figured it was better to show my respect, he was my ( Read more... )

well its been awhile. today was my birthday (well technically, yesterday was my birthday) didnt really do much. but fight with housing, get woken up from a nap by a fire alarm (after having been up since 6am), drove around with aubrey. and that was my birthday. lol ( Read more... )

i am so fucking pissed off right now its not even funny. Im getting written up at work for calling out, but i gave them plenty notice and tried hard to find someone to cover the shift and my boss says to be, well someone is missing a performance to come into work tonight after they saw your post so you probably gonna be written up. im sorry thats ( Read more... )