well looks like i wont be in school anymore. my appeal was denied. im such a fucking failure. i have let everyone down. i dont know how to tell my parents. they are going to explode. im freaking out and i dont have anyone to talk too. everything i do i just fail at. i give up on life. on everything ( Read more... )

so as of tonight. i dont have a working car. i went to work..worked 3-9. when i went to leave it didnt start. and it wasnt the battery because the radio, and lights worked. so its either my starter or my alternater. so im pretty much fucked. i mean tomorrow i can probably use my moms car to get to work. but i dont know what im going to do during ( Read more... )

well..NIN put on a great show. i enjoyed myself. it was fun. we were right on the floor. We had to wear braclets to get down there. it was exciting. lol. after that we went to the old port. 1$ drinks at the iguana. i was drunk! haha. it was a blast. needles to say my friend braden had a great birthday. from what he remembers. lol. we were up with ( Read more... )

well..not to much going on..been working my ass off. last week i worked 44 hours! so 4 hours overtime! so my check this week is going to be fucking awesome and i can get my hawthorne heights tickets! yay ( Read more... )

well its been awhile since i updated..not all that much going on. just been working and hanging out with friends. last night anthony, michelle, braden and joe and i decided at 10 at night to take a trip to old orchard. it was fun. we walked the beach, joked around. it was good. going to the beach tomorrow too. im excited i love the ocean ( Read more... )

yeah so...ive been suspended from school. i suck at life. i cant believe i let this happen. im going to appeal but theres always the chance that they arent going to let me back. then im basically done with school. unless i can somehow manage to pay for it myself..that is if they allow me back after a semester. as of right now..my housing has been ( Read more... )

ugh. things have been alright i guess. i dunno. got alot going through my head right now. againg. i think that i think too much sometimes. but im slowly getting better. i never thought i would miss Orono as much as i do. everynight i go to sleep wishing that when i wake up it will be time to move into Oak with all my crazies ( Read more... )

well so far i enjoy my job. granted its only been 2 days and its all been trying. but i am now cpr and first aid certifired. which is always good. ate lunch with one of the girls in my class today she seems really nice. we were partners in first aid class. got to put splints on each other it was funny. she goes to Orono as well which is weird. but ( Read more... )

i got my grades in..yay..i think i should just give up on school. i dont think its for me ( Read more... )

so..went to a party friday night at anthonys apartment. it was ok. i went...and then ashley (the girl anthony likes and who has been playing games with him and his friend joe) showed up. i guess brandon invited her. i was pissed. and really upset. but i just ended up getting really drunk. more drunk then i have ever been. lets just say i went there ( Read more... )