I GOT A GIRLFRIEND. OMG IM SO HAPPY. She is amazing. she makes me smile so much. she makes me so happy. i cannot wait to meet her! she lives fairly close to me!! especially compared to my last girlfriend... hah. anyways here is a picture of Rachel!! <3 <3 <3


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nobody likes me...

: (

ill just go cut my arm... like all the cool kids...

ill go overdose on pills like i did in the past!! hahaha.

ill run away.. so far away and start a new life...

ill hang my ugly self...

ILL PUT A BULLET IN MY FUCKING HEAD!!!

ha.. JK.....but seriously guys.. nobody likes me... am i not nice or somethin?? am i ugly ( Read more... )

ive got a crush on my best friend :X
<3 but SHH. dont tell! <3 ;)

RACHEL <3

im finally over her.

went to counseling and the psychiatrist today. i am now switching from lexapro to a medicine called effexor... i think thats how it is spelled. so the switch will make me depressed but in the long run it should be worth it. today has been very rough on me.. cried alot.. lots of regret.. very little hope in my mind right now.. i wonder if i did the ( Read more... )

i had to break up with brittany. really sucks. but i had no choice. part of me hopes this is the last time. part of me really misses her. i hope i did the right thing. i wrote this below.. its what she has made me feel ( Read more... )

Im really stressed. trying to hide it the best i can. seems im not aloud to express myself anymore.

Well now that i am thinking clearly again and am not so depressed.. i realize things are not so bad. I just need to work on getting happy again. its not going to be easy.. but i need to try my hardest. so i have a "brain disorder".. many people deal with it. so what? right? well i realize its just something i will have to deal with and manage.. ( Read more... )

i doubt anybody cares to read this.. but i am miserable. things are going so badly. and i try to think of what my counselor always tells me.. "if something you are doing doesnt work.. dont keep doing the same thing.. try something different" but its so hard to let go of certain things.. and forget people and places. surely everyone knows what this ( Read more... )

I have been drinking tea for the past hour or so.. i love tea.. it makes me anxious though.. but also makes me very awake. so i keep drinking it.

It is late.. I decided last night that i want to be a writer. Though i do not have any good ideas.. I want to try this at least. i feel that writing my thoughts out is a lot more satisfying than just ( Read more... )