if only it were easy, like tearing perforated paper.

will this help me write? to be able to sit on my lazy ever-growing ass and tip tap type away my time? and if i write, will it even fucking matter? ridiculous ideas i had, as a child. the only idea i had- that i could write for a life, that words would fuel me, that eruptions of emotions would prove poetic and beautiful, relate-able and ( Read more... )

just a second ago my life was starting. i blinked, butterfly wings, and i burned everything.

just a second ago i was in your room. the wind blew and i'm broken.

just like everyone.

did a stupid thing today. went to see you today. saw the beer bottles on your kitchen counter, saw the bottles of what She drinks. heard you tell a story about a young girl you said wants you. what else could i do? i laughed, i encouraged you ( Read more... )

i can see it in your eyes
that i can't see it in your eyes.

do you ever think you'll miss me
as much as you wanted to possess me?

i remember
a time when things felt simpler
when life hurt too much to even move
then there's now
i can't sit still
itching just to get out
unable to be unaware
there's no escape
i remember
a time when things were simpler
when the consequence paled to the regret
of not just going for it.

it's been a long time since i just lived.

i hate the moments of clarity. these moments that i am oh-so-sure, that i am undeniable, omniscient. steady hand, steady gaze. first to draw at the gunfight in my mind ( Read more... )

heaven is the hell of a black heart ( Read more... )

it's not that you didn't; it's that you didn't think of it.

can i just forget the whole decade?