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Is it a law
That the way you get better at anything
Is by doing it?
Over,
And over
Again?

Or did i just assume that
And by all this reading, writing, dating,
Im not getting anywhere?

Quentin told me about Henri Bergsons idea of crystallization, and that its the phenomenon of forming a mental concept that "crystallizes" your understanding of a phenomenon. It reminded me of meditation in buddhism, and now of the idea of learning to "see" in drawing. I think crystallization is a habit we have, and we dont have to live always by ( Read more... )

Trauma of years of being rejected/ghosted by men and it never working out

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How do i know what feels like me and not aome other identity im trying to put on? If i just want to start a hobby, is it me? If i have to work hard to practice thst hobby and its not enjoyable at first, whar about that?

I put it out there, exposed!
Exposed myself and my feelings
In a text message, a very nice message,
And i may never receive a response
Like waking up to not even coal under the christmas tree
But waking up to nothing at all,
And learning for the very first time that santa isnt real
On christmas day, when youre still half-asleep in your footie pajamas, ( Read more... )

I need to stay focused on taking care of myself and I have identified that one issue and habit I can develop is having inner inspiration and strength and self-belief. To continue to listen to and follow my inner light and not let the outside worlds pressures thrust me into desperation.

I am very much walking my own path and figuring out what feels ( Read more... )

Fear that i wont be a leader
Fear that i wont find my people
That i wont accomplish
Fear of facing my fears

Kat and i met. She gave me a makeover but i wouldnt let her have mt haircut (at supercuts no less). She was adopted by jay z and beyonce and talked about how shed hope theyd die when her kids were sophomores. Her figure looked amazing and she said shed been going to the gym.

I got into an event that was some celebration or shoq organized by kanye ( Read more... )

I feel like i use up too mich space,and inadequately at that.

Gregory,

What are we if not friends?