It's hard for me to see my mental illness. But it's there.

Women get attached to men. Men get attached to their egos.

Part of getting focused is creating structure.

Time for social media
Time for blogging--before writing taking 30 seconds to center breathing
Time for creating
Time for working out
Time for meditating
Time for reading
Time for job (applications)

Sense of ritual comes from consistency

Homework: start with scheduling one thing

Dream. Angrily bearing up a woman, bit off her finger. Amazed by how strong i was. Regretting placing this big sculptire in front of someone...hurting them....they didnt come back. Apartment oveetaken. Looking at baby clothes. A picture of a baby that looked like my dad in the store. My dad and cherry moving.

So much discomfort, feeling rotten, ( Read more... )

Dreamt that Ben Rosman aspired to be a multimedia experimental artist and i tried to reconnect over the fact that its my aspirarion as well

The owner of this japanese restaurant and i got to chatting, and at the end she said, "Try Japan"

I was enraged in a psychology program that failed to address capitalist systemic oppression. So enraged i could not express it properly.

We had been trying to find places to live.

The program eventually changed, everyone did...

I ripped my sankalpa necklace today during dancing at the superbowl party today

Telling ppl at yogaworks ots my tenth anniversary of doing yoga

Trying to help ester with a paper and then learning that she already knew what she was doing and feeling like an asshole. Something about witches and way more invested in the classwork than mine was ("liberal universe"). I had kwpt talking about how it was supposed to be an argumwnt but ( Read more... )

Hanging out with Jessi, Samantha and Courtney (yogaworks ppl). I suggested we all take a bath together. Jessi lingered in the bath and i got in and it was full of filthy bacteria water and i got irritated and started draining it, tho jessi was luxuriating in it. Then we all were in a big bath together and i offered one of my bath bombs from emily. ( Read more... )