Have you ever loved somebody so much it makes you cry?

[niiinnnaaaa]

Why do I always end up feeling second best?

I wish I could just be satisfied with the way things are for once. But then, everything would be perfect and boring wouldn't it? Oh, I don't know anymore. I don't know what I want, what I'm feeling. I don't know why every sentence in this entry starts with "I" or "I'm." Does that make me self-centered? I'

Comments

[thebballchik]

hey nina, just commenting...

i love u<333

♥

[laurenwilson]

nina carol blumberg
stop caring so much to what people think.
i remember the old nina. the 7th grade nina. who didnt care about what others thought. who felt like she was confident in herself, just the way she was.
nina you are gorgeous. more so than i want it to be, and im so jealous. who cares about THIER expectations and what THEY think. what about you nina? be yourself. if there is anyone to impress its yourself. no need to impress me. its already done mah ladayy. i love you more than anything. and NOTHING can change my mind. just take off the BIG load you are carrying and throw it in the mediteranean sea. [because its far away and wont be able to come back]

nina carol. ♥ i love you and always will

if you ever need something, ANYTHING, you know the number. <33

[amandamary]

awww ninna. i've so felt that way before. i think everyone goes throught it. youre one of like the coolest people i know. you're right if things were perfect they'd be boring. and i wish it wasn't that way. but something comes good out of everything. and you'll find the good in this. i nkow you will.

♥ amanda

[katiehammaker]

nina

[niiinnnaaaa]

Katie.

Thank you for the comment, and the encouragement. However, I do disagree with a couple of things. [The rest is truly fantastic and I love you and thank you.] The grades- I work my ass off for them, especially this year...It's so hard. My mother does not buy me anything I want, in fact, all of my new clothes this year I bought for myself with my own money earned babysitting. She bought me, I think, three pairs of jeans. I don't think my life is shit, but just like you, I'm not happy with every single aspect of it. And I also know there's no such thing as the "perfect life." I'm not stupid, and just because I wish a few things were better doesn't mean I'm not thankful for the things I already have [You and the rest of my friends for example.<3]. I don't know why we worry, but that's also part of human nature...So we might as well not try to candycoat it and be like "I'm totally happy all the time, nothing is ever wrong." I agree though, there are much, much more than "I wants" in life, and I know that. But, things change. And

[katiehammaker]

well i know someone who candycoats it all the time. and she is literally the happiest person i know. but whatever. yea soo anyways.

i know everyone wants change sometimes. but what if that is the way GOD wants you.

katie

[niiinnnaaaa]

If she candycoats it, that means she's not happy all the time. But, if we're talking about Caroline Ballowe, I don't think she candycoats it. She's just plain happy with whatever comes her way. And that's a true gift, not everyone is that blessed.

God knows that as you grow and mature, you're going to go through some changes. He understands that as long as you're not like breaking the law [which He also forgives because he knows that's part of growing up and making mistakes and learning from them], then it's necessary for a person to change to become the person they're going to be for the rest of their lives.

I love you.<3

[sarah1790]

no one is ever satisfied with the way things are and your right, life would be boring if it was perfect

if it's your journal, there is nothing wrong with putting i and i'm

you seem confused right now, don't worry you'll get over it, just enjoy what you've got and have fun and soon all those little things that are getting to you will go away

see you on thursday.

[niiinnnaaaa]

Thank you.:]
Thursday shall be fun.
<3 <3 <3

Nina

[hoohooholly]

a lot of people like you...you shouldnt be so consciensious...you make great grades(i dont) you have the hots for justin(i do, but dont even know him), and youre good at volleyball(im not, ive never tried though.), you have a B-E-A-utiful house(i dont) you have a hot brother( i dont), you are involved in NJHS(im not smart enough), youve been in SCA for ever(im not), you do your geometry before class(i do too, sometimes) and you have a lot of friends.(yes i actually do) you shouldnt be so worried because of the above reasons.
<3 holly

Re: Nina

[niiinnnaaaa]

Haha, you amuse me.
And I love you.<3