Every time I miss him. I come online to tell him so, to bare part of my soul to him, to show him how pathetic I am. But I never get that far. I see him with his new girlfriend and smile a bittersweet smile that I can feel breaking my heart all over again and push down the urge ( Read more... )

Why can I never have what I desire? What the fuck is wrong with me?

"What am I fighting for?

There must be something more...

For all these words I've said,

Do you feel anything?

What am I fighting for?

I said I'm okay...

But I know how to lie."

I feel myself getting depressed again.

I just want to go back to bed. :(

Thank you higher power for giving me Edward dreams last night. Siggghhhhhhhhhh.

Such a pity I had to wake up!

:(

You know you've completely gone off the geek ledge when you break down and get a headset with a mic and talk on Vent whilst playing your game.

I'm guilty of this now.

It's always fun being like the one girl in a room of guys. lol.

Why the fuck do you do that crap to me? You fucked up my whole fucking night. I think I'm fine. I'm doing okay. Living. Surviving. Dealing. And then out of the fucking blue you send me a message. And this isn't even the first time! What am I supposed to make of all this? Honestly! Do you do this because you're fighting with your gf? That's what I ( Read more... )

Baby, you're so hot you should be illegal...


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My tattoo is Thursday. I'm pretty excited. I hope it looks okay. Lyndsey is going with me unless she forgot and made other plans. So I'm counting on her expertise about vamps to be my second pair of eyes and give me opinions on it. People at work either think I'm nuts or are really pumped for it. I don't really have any regrets so far about it. It ( Read more... )

Oh R Patz. Why you gotta be so smexy?

So I have decided on getting another tattoo. I have been thinking about this for awhile now. I had decided I would probably get a new one when I got my Bush tax money stuff back. Well, most of that is gone. *cough* Thank you, Sookie Stackhouse. However, since Borders now works me a whole 33 hours a week now. I think a little tattoo party is in ( Read more... )