long time since i've last written...well let's just say that i have had a long and difficult year...the only good part of my year is that me and brenden are still together...o how i love that boy...he is like the highlight of my life...he came to visit me ova labor day weekend it was the best weekend that i had in a long time...i have a new stalker ( Read more... )

fewer days everday...stopped the count down like that would stop the day from coming...excited get to see brenden after like a whole month...packin left me with so much stress...trunk won't close and i am only tryin to take one cuz i guess the normal college student only takes one trunk...found my glasses but now i want new frames or contacts...a ( Read more... )

Not to long ago i didn't believe in love and then i met someone who changed my mind and then after that i found the pain that goes along with love and the end of it...i then dated and neva was serious about anyone even if they were serious with me...now i'm in this relationship and it seems like the more i fight it the more i feel for him like ( Read more... )

gosh i have such a pounding headache yea now i am very serious about neva having kids i mean my lil cousin's are here for like 4 weeks and yes i do want to kill them like everyday...i need like 2 900mg to make this headache go away ( Read more... )

still smiling it's something ia m really not use to but i like it a lot!! i spend hours talkin to brenden and i mean i don't get much sleep but i feel like i don't need sleep when i am talkin to him cuz i neva wanna get off the phone when i am talkin to him...gosh i just really wanna get bacl to b*more

yea i feel really wowish like things are really a dream for me like my life can't really be this good and that i can't really be this happy i am so ready to go off to college not really ready for the classes but more for the hangin out with brenden i mean i like him and he is really smart and makes me smile i don't think that i have stop smilin ( Read more... )

at times i wonder what it is i am doin with my life...worrying is not for me...gives u bad skin...naive people aren't for me either...not believing in love...refreshing feeling...happier the way i was...should i tell him...give me a clue...bent...no more tears left

it seems like on days that i have something to be happy about or just should be happy i find the one thing wrong in my life and that just brings down my whole day...i like living in my forrest of feeling and not sharing them i like keepin people at a safe distance...when did that become something bad...sometimes i feel like frankie j like i don't ( Read more... )

i wish i knew what i wanted or what would make me happy...icky feelings runnin through me...tired of thinkin must rest my head hurts...tv is the model of our lives (lol) outtie

the man who donated his sperm to make me some of u might call him my father he thinks that i am only worth $50...i am tryin to tell myself that at least he thought enough to send me some money at all...but i can't help thinkin that he only thinks i am worth that much...the odd thing is i didn't really expect that much from him...but with his money ( Read more... )