i'm bored. today was better than yesterday. then again i was..well happier LoL umm i want to see kegan this w.e. really bad and i'm getting frustrated..i dunno what to do..blah...i wish i knew what to do ( Read more... )

want 2 b

I AM: hurt ( Read more... )

confused. hurt. stressed. torn. . my list goes on. i dont know what to do

i wish i knew what he was thinking. i wish i knew what i could do to make things better. if theres a god i need him now. i'm so lost......nothing is right. nothing. please someone help me. why do i search for answers to the questions that have none. i know the truth but i'm ( Read more... )

this weekend was amazing. i saw kegan friday and saturday. it was great. friday we watched t.v. and sat around together. it would have been so boring with anyone else but with him it was perfect.

saturday we played in the rain and sat under the patio. of course theres more to these stories than meets the eye but yea these are just the basics. lol ( Read more... )

you'll say you understand, but you don't understand

you'll say you'd never give up seeing eye to eye

but never is a promise, and you can't afford to lie

you'll never touch these things that I hold 
the skin of my emotions lies beneath my own
you'll never feel the heat of this soul 
my fever burns me deeper than I've ever shown to you

you'll say, ( Read more... )

reasons...everyone wants reasons as to why i am the way i am. honestly, i would like to know myself..
i want to know why
i cry
i'm screaming but no one can hear me
im happy for a moment then i lose it
i'm free but i hold back
i drown in self-pity.
i am ashamed
i blame myself
i do things to make me happy and then feel guilty
i feel more ( Read more... )

i'm really scared now. my biggest fear in life is to lose ones i love. well tuesday will be one year since brian died. and its bringing back so many emotions i dont know what to do with myself. then theres so much going on in my family. i'm so worried about my sister heather. most people dont even kno about her. ha well now its out for the world to ( Read more... )

wow i had the most amazing day!! i got asked to the john carroll by my friend jamie and me and kegan started going out ((sighs)) i'm soo happy about that!!! and i went to saks and got my dress! its awesome i cant wait until next weekend!! ahh great day! ok i'm going to go now!!!

to do this...I want everyone who reads this to ask me 3 questions, no more no less. Ask me anything you want. Then, I want you to go to your journal, copy and paste this allowing your friends (including myself) to ask you anything.

GO. do it. NOW.
yes. comment.
and while you're at it
just tell me anything interesting. a story perhaps