Today is one of those days that I just want to crawl back in bed and not get up for any reason. I'm so tired, and I know that it's just part of life and more specifically, my life but I'm just tired of it ( Read more... )

It seems like when I'm unhappy with one aspect of my life, things tend to snowball for me ( Read more... )

How many times have I thought this one in my head. I am very involved with my family, maybe too much would be the opinions of some. I know Andy thought so. But I had gotten used to being with someone for whom family was helad at quite an arms distance...like 2500 miles arms distance ( Read more... )

After posting some of my upset-nes with Matt on my myspace yesterday, I wondered what kind, if any comments I would get in regards to it. After all there are only a couple of people who actually know the whole story, and I won't be telling in to anyone else, so thats it. Well, I got a comment from Jake about it, saying that although he didn't ( Read more... )

I don't know why it is that I get into these moods. I know that I have a pretty good life, but sometimes I just look around me and wonder if this is really it. This was never what I thought I wanted for myself, the just getting by. I hate being upset, I want to be really and truely happy, but I don't know that I know what that is. I feel ( Read more... )

I had a myspace from Jake today, I don't think I've talked to him in almost 2 years...I still think about him though. He and Courtney are getting married and I'm totally happy for him. He has found someone who is so wonderful for him in every way, and I think that is amazing! I'm sad that he and I aren't really very good friends anymore, but I know ( Read more... )

I realize that I have very little education and that I tend to be a bit on the lazy side, but I like a challenge and I am capable of learning things. That being said, I really strongly dislike my job. I feel like I was given half assed training and then sent over to the Radisson to do a job that I'm not sure the people here really care about anyway ( Read more... )

I love my mom, she is the best. We didn't always have the best relationship, I was hell on wheels for several years and she was at the end of her rope often in trying to figure out how to deal with me, but now she is always there to listen to me when I'm upset or need ideas about something and she tells me what she thinks, good or bad. She is ( Read more... )

So last night wasn't all that great for me. Well, maybe in some ways it was. I went to dinner with Matt last night and then went to starbucks and then home. Yesterday would have been my 4 year wedding anniversary, had Andy and I stayed married, and although I don't miss Andy, I think I'm still mourning the loss of a life that I wanted. I wanted to ( Read more... )

So I'm not sure what it is about me that I can't seem to find a good job. I find jobs that sound good from the outside but once I'm in them I find that they really suck and aren't nearly as good as I thought they sounded. I know the thing with Cheryl was my fault, I thought I could put up with the way she was even though I know how sensitive I am ( Read more... )