Hey, I found you through some community- youre really positive! I binged and purged today, first time in a while and it was really encouraging to read what u had to say. So thanks Rachel!
Thanks, I makes me feel so good when I can make someones day just a little more brighter. It's like people at AA say: Take one day at a time. And that's what you really have to do. so I slipped up, there's always tomorrow. If you can try again and not slip back into the cycle, then you're going to be okay. <3 I'm going to add you if you dont mind.
Hi! I'm glad that my journal can inspire you. I just let the words flow out onto the keyboard not realizing how much it can help people. I'm waiting for a call back from UCLA's pyschiatric unit so I can get help with my bulimia. They don't have an available bed yet and since it's the holidays, they are extremely busy. I know having bulimia is bad, but sometimes I try to justify it, "oh it's not that bad, I can stop anytime" but I know I can't do it on my own. I'm going to add you as a friend if you don't mind. Take care of yourself too, "if I've learned anything, I've learned this: It is every bit as healing to have others depend on you, as it is for you to be able to depend on others." This was a statment that was said at one of my mom's AA meetings. You have to depend on others and have others depend on you to get the support that you really need. <3 <3 <3 Rachel
Hopefully UCLA's psych unit will have a bed for you, soon. In the meantime, you are doing a wonderful job. I have problems with justifying what I do, too. But the fact that I need that reassurance so much, the fact that I need it to be "OK" lets me know that, no, things are not OK-- otherwise you wouldn't seek that reassurance so badly.
But, you know, fighting this doesn't seem so scary when you don't have to go through it alone. You really are doing such a great job. You've made the biggest step in admitting that you don't want to live this way anymore. And that is so admirable. You want to do it for you, and it's inspiring.
Ok, I'm going to hurry up and add you so I can finally have a friend on this journal, lol.
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"if I've learned anything, I've learned this: It is every bit as healing to have others depend on you, as it is for you to be able to depend on others."
This was a statment that was said at one of my mom's AA meetings. You have to depend on others and have others depend on you to get the support that you really need. <3 <3 <3 Rachel
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Hopefully UCLA's psych unit will have a bed for you, soon. In the meantime, you are doing a wonderful job. I have problems with justifying what I do, too. But the fact that I need that reassurance so much, the fact that I need it to be "OK" lets me know that, no, things are not OK-- otherwise you wouldn't seek that reassurance so badly.
But, you know, fighting this doesn't seem so scary when you don't have to go through it alone. You really are doing such a great job. You've made the biggest step in admitting that you don't want to live this way anymore. And that is so admirable. You want to do it for you, and it's inspiring.
Ok, I'm going to hurry up and add you so I can finally have a friend on this journal, lol.
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