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nikkiremembered

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Dec 31, 2004 15:20

I threw out some great binge food yesterday so I wouldn't b/p today. Alas, I b/p today on some shitty ass food. I fucking wish I would just die.

I want to be fucking bones. Please leave me alone.

$5- cigs or food?

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mldrfan December 31 2004, 15:33:37 UTC

cigs

nikkiremembered January 1 2005, 00:25:07 UTC

I agree, I need to quit but right now I can't even try to again.
<3

mldrfan January 1 2005, 06:31:37 UTC

yeah i've known ppl close to me who've either quit or tried to quit and all that is substituted for the cigs is food, food and more food so i dunno what's unhealthier for you. cigs or food and the mental torture you'd go through if you ate all that more food :S

nikkiremembered January 1 2005, 23:27:41 UTC

:( I bought food. I shouldve, couldve, wouldve. I cant take it back. Got to be strong :)

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nikkiremembered January 1 2005, 00:26:34 UTC

I know :( But today I b/p and I just ate around the craving. I was just so pissed that I threw out good b/p food so I wouldn't b/p today. Even though I ended up doing it anyways. Happy New Year *hugs*

summa1 December 31 2004, 16:52:55 UTC

Hi I commented before in your journal under ssamantha120 but I wanted to leave you a note again. The program at UCLA saved my life. If you would like to ask me any questions about it(fears etc) Id be more than glad to talk.

ana4athom December 31 2004, 20:54:54 UTC

cigs cigs cigs cigs!
and congrats on throwing away that food!!!!!
love ya,
dori

nikkiremembered January 1 2005, 00:31:32 UTC

I better hurry up and buy those cigs before I spend it on food. lol
loves ya, rachel
Happy new year!

nikkiremembered January 1 2005, 00:29:32 UTC

I remember you. I only went for my consultation; still anxiously waiting for an available bed. Does the hospital have all eating disorder patients or is it a mix of other patients with mental disorders? What should I expect on my first day? Groups, meals, one-on-one, phone calls? How long were you admitted and was it voluntarily? <3 thanks

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summa1 January 1 2005, 11:00:32 UTC

ug, sorry typos,
the eating disorder wing HAS only ed patients, and I met many friends there who Im still in contact with.

myfailingplans January 1 2005, 14:33:12 UTC

that's the lucky thing for me. i figure till i'm over my other addictions (alcohol, random drugs, ed, etc.) i don't even have to consider quitting smoking. after all, it would be too much pressure to try to quit more than one thing at a time.
therefore, when it comes down to a question between smokes and food, it's always the cigarettes darling.

nikkiremembered January 2 2005, 11:29:20 UTC

I know and then I blow my money on food. *pissed*