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[nikkiremembered]

Wanna hear the nastiest most grossest thing in the world

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[thesillyheart]

Dood, I love that episode of Rug Rats. My favorite part is when she says:

"I don't wanna eat 'em, I just wanted to hold 'em a little."

Cracks my shit up!!!

[nikkiremembered]

lol, I remember when she said that.

Too funny, especially for us.

[tornbetween]

I dropped a loaf of bread in the rain the other night and I ate it anyway...

[nikkiremembered]

I know I'd do the same. Even if the bread tasted like nothing. For me it's just a matter of stuffing something in my mouth. I once read that as time goes on for a bulimic, the food that she eats get grosser and grosser. i.e. globs of fried flour, spoonfuls of sugar and jelly. I'm here for you. <3

[tornbetween]

Yeah, I just like the chewing and the swallowing and the temporary filling of the void inside me...only to get it all out, which feels cleansing. Doesn't matter as much what I'm eating.
That's interesting that bulimics start eating grosser stuff. It seems true for me.

[nikkiremembered]

You explained that well: 'filling the temporary void...only to get it all out.' We need to start filling that void with something else. But what.

[nikkiremembered]

It's just such a dirty secret. I wrote down that quote. Duh, I've heard it a million times, but it just sounds better in Latin. <3

[mldrfan]

it's not that nasty and you're not alone my dear! i have been known to see something right at the top of the garbage that my mum just threw out....ya know it's on top of everything, there's nothing really nasty or anyhing in the garbage and it looked really good....and i took it out and ate it.
i was so ashamed. but then i spit it out b4 swallowing any of it, but what i'm trying to say is that we've ALL been there!!!!!!
you're SO not alone! *hugs*

[nikkiremembered]

Ok, I know, but it's just such a dirty secret. I really need to re-learn how to view food. Food ha! I have to teach myself all over again how to eat with the thought of, "This is really good, healthy and great energy for my body". I really do. *hugs*

[thesillyheart]

That reminds me of this one episode of Seinfeld where George eats the eclair out of the garbage.

I feel ya.

[myfailingplans]

i relate to this entry.
bah.

[myfailingplans]

sorry, that sounded kinda bitchy. didn't mean that! but the thing your sister told you, that killed me--sometimes i realize i lie to myself about the extent of my ed. and then i wonder, does it really matter?
after all, i'm still here, still alive.
so whatever.
luvs.

[nikkiremembered]

I don't think it sounded bitchy at all. I lie to myself, well I justify it a lot. I feel like I'm being a baby, or I'm doing it for attention. I only come to my senses after I blow money on a binge and force myself to vomit. And I say, "It won't ever happen to me" meaning I'll never have a cardiac arrest due to bulimia. After all, every one feels invincible at times. <3