Can I please go back to times that I could distract myself enough for this anxiety and depression to not rule every single thing in my life?

I think this will be my last chance.

It's getting easier ( Read more... )

All of this unhappiness is because of my own actions, and I think it's what makes it hurt even more. Trying so hard to make everyday a new day and a new challenge, but it's getting harder and harder.

Sometimes, I wish you were still my partner in crime.
Especially when the rain comes.

Just trying to be happy...

Amanda and Jessica left for Marysville about 2 hrs ago. They're staying there over night at a motel, and at 8am tomorrow, Amanda will start her out-processing for Air Force basic training, and will find out if her flight leaves out of Oakland or Sacramento on Wednesday. I hope it leaves from Oakland. If it does I plan on calling in sick to work, so ( Read more... )

Boyfriend left for camping for 4 days ( Read more... )

I need something to get my brain feeling correct again.
I feel a huge disconnection somewhere here.
I can't quite figure it out.
All I feel like, is sleep.

Fabulous weekend.
Now I can end it with two days off, and chillin at the computer with my cat in my lap.

Amanda's Birthday weekend= success.
So much fun.
Now... Monday, back to real life.
Stupid frustrating stuff.
Gotta go do laundry today, and a whole bunch, gotta wash all the jackets that have been in my car since winter ended last year.
I swear, I have a war going on inside my brain right now. Too much, too little time!