i wonder why i care?
and i ponder if it's fair?
i didn't even get to see your face
when i heard you were there, my heart started to pace...
did you want to see me?
or did you run away to maintain "happy?"
why it bothers me, i don't know...
it seems ridiculous, to still care about you...

help me someone...I need a video camera on the fly...but it has to tape onto actual tapes...or it has to be one where you can pop the little mini thing into a tape and play it in a VCR...I need one on the fly...I have one but you have to have the camera to hook up to the VCR and play it...it's a bitch, lol. So please someone help me!!! If you could ( Read more... )

I've had a very long day and I am very tired and there are just two things right now that are pissing me right the fuck off ( Read more... )

Have you ever just wanted everything to be different? I mean everything...including yourself. That's the way I feel right now. I wish I looked different, sounded different, acted different, I wish I was just plain different. I know that's wrong to feel, cause I should love who I am...sometimes I do...just not right now, lol. I just hate having to ( Read more... )

"I am a worthless piece of shit Nik ( Read more... )

have you ever had so many little things to do, and you could get them all done in one day...but you just didn't feel like doing them? lol well that has happened to me...lol...

talent show feb 28th!! woo, so excited...not just because i am singin, but because i get to see other people...i like watchin talent shows...lets say oh oh...hehe...who's

i need help...i really think i do...why am i so afraid to ask for it?

is there something wrong with me? maybe i am not good enough...and don't even comment and say i am enough, i don't need that right now...but it's like so many people are in quote "in love" and i sit here just praying i may once go on a date...i've never been on a date and i've never been in a relationship...i kissed one person and it was so fucked ( Read more... )

why am i always the one being treated like shit? i really used to believe, "treat people the way you want to be treated." but it's like it never happens that way...i don't get it. sure there are people that are kind to me as i am to them...they treat me like i am something special...but why is the one person that i care so much about the one ( Read more... )

i had you for a day, but only one day...it ended even before i could grasp that it had begun...was i being selfish or protective? nothing is going to change...you won't come around any more often...nor will i have my best friend back. i had you, then i lost you...had you for one day and lost you so quickly...but you know...while you sat there and ( Read more... )