So yeah things are going pretty good lately. I have some awesome friends that I have way too much fun with ( Read more... )

So Im up 2 jobs but down 2 friends..Not a very fun trade off ( Read more... )

I dont even know what to feel anymore. The one thing that I have always wanted is not forever gone. And there is absolutly nothing that I can do about it. And that hurts so much. He wants the girls that only want him on their terms instead of me who wants him forever. Im just not good enough I guess. And that sucks so much. I want to be the one ( Read more... )

I WANT TO DIE!!!!

Yeah so I guess we didnt make it. So close but yet so far away. Guess I am not worth working for. Guess what we had is something that is not worth trying to make work...nope instead it is just something to throw away like it was nothing at all. It hurts so much but there is absolutly nothing that I can do about it. I just hope that at some point in ( Read more... )

Like it says I just wanna die. I really think I am losing Stephen and it is killing me. I love him so much..He means the world to me. I cant lose him. This hurts so much that I dont even know what to do anymore. I was so excited for our one year that is on June 28 but now I dont even know if we are gonna make it...and if we do I dont even think we ( Read more... )

So the worst thing that could ever happen I think has just happened. I just found out that Stephen has been thinking for the past few months what it would be like if there wasnt an "us". I dont want to lose him...Not again. I love him so much. I dont know what I will do if he wants to break up with me. So right now I just have to sit and wait until ( Read more... )

So I dont even know what to do with myself anymore. No matter what I do my heart is breaking. I am miserable with every decision I could make. There is something that Stephen does that he wont tell me. On any other matter I really wouldnt care so much but when he makes it so obvious that he is doing something that he doesnt want me to know that bad ( Read more... )

Yeah so I guess I was a bitch in my last entry which is now deleted cause not a word of it was meant. I was going through a time where everything upset me and I had no idea why but I would get really mad or really upset. I apologize Becky. To you too Greg. I know I really offended you and I just want you to know that I really didnt mean a single ( Read more... )

Yeah so what a day I seem to be having today. I am having such a bad day and I cant seem to figure out why. Greg and Becky didnt really help but oh well what can you do. I think my bad has been just building up for a while now and now every little thing is gonna set me off. I mean I am trying really hard to find a place for us to live and everytime ( Read more... )