I've dreamed of you... I love you. I don't know how, or why I do.... but I do. Without pretext. Without understanding why. Without knowing if it would even be possible. Knowing that I would only run if you came around ( Read more... )

I'm tired. Lonely. Listless. My friends are moving, or busy. I'm a bit of an emotional puddle. I'm tired of listening to certain people bitch and whine about shit that they have no right to bitch about. I'm afraid of my life right now. Tired of trying. Just want to sleep ( Read more... )

So I freaked out, just like you said I would. I've managed to reign myself in, at least until I hear the next bit of news. I cry over you. I never meant to. But I do. You don't have to love me, that's not the point of this love I bear for you, but how I wish you would. I miss you. So often, I miss you. I carry you with me all the time, so deep ( Read more... )

WHY ARE MEN CRYPTIC AND DUMB?! Just tell me. Just say it... just say it... Guess I'm just an idiot. It doesn't matter either way. I'll run. Or ruin it. I'm better off alone, and that's okay with me. It's all I know.

I don't know how to fall in love, I only know how to fall to pieces.

So... I asked male advice about the situation on my mind. I got the answer that I wanted, but it didn't comfort me at all.... Isn't that the way of things? It's frustrating... Meh. Just wish there was someone to talk to about it. Ah well, such is life ( Read more... )

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I sit here, in the morning watching the tail end of a Nanny marathon wondering how I got to be where I am. And old friend came into the restaurant last night and she asked me about Janiece... It made me wonder how she got to be where she is, why she is happy, when I'm a... well.... shipwreck decaying at the bottom of the sea. I have nothing of ( Read more... )

I HATE MONEY! Or lack there of. Fucking car insurance! FUCKING BILLS!!! FUCKING SHITTY JOB!!! GAHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Okay, I'm done ( Read more... )

"Stop all the clocks, cut off the telephone ( Read more... )

If death really does move in threes, I've got two more to go, and the next one will be Matt Patterson...his cancer is killing him swiftly. My uncle Eddy just died today from cancer... *sigh ( Read more... )