what's it like to be alone... on your own, by yourself? liberating? free? lonely?

i would love to see myself bleed right now.

i'd die and be myself 2 years ago if i could

i'm a bad person? am i a really bad horrible person and i just don't know it? :( i really wish i'd gotten home in time to oder some pizza. pizza would be super sweet right now. oh and an apology from my boyfriend. that would be the bestest.

the boy and i were supposed to go swimming. but he's so hungover he doesn't even know who i am right now. i've got a headache and i didn't even drink. ggrrrrr :(

the next two days will be rough. i always try to be the type of person the celebrates someones life first, and mourns them second. nothing can be changed, so you have to hold on to what you have. i've been looking at pictures to help me remember some good times, and if you'd like to see them, just hit the cut.

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i'm just mad. so mad and disappointed.

i hate whores. i hate lying, backstabbing, disease spreading, ugly, filthy, nasty, worthless whores.

:::sigh:::

so much to say, and i can't say any of it.

:::bangs head on keyboard:::

fucking hell.

i'm trying to get back into the swing of this journal thing. i think it's good for me. i've got a lot of pent up... whatever, and it all drives me crazy sometimes. so i just have to remember this is here ( Read more... )