totally disregard that last entry
i'm not THAT unhappy

i don't like getting close to people
it's too hard :\

ah, so i again have been fooled into thinking that i have friends.
i hate everyone.

i need to save money and get the fuck out of here.
there's nothing left for me

*sidenote: i dont hate: my family, carl, marisa or warren.*

**sidenote pretty much everyone else can rot! suck it!

i decided next fall... 09
im moving out of the area.
love me all you can while im here.

ive been sssssssssoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo happy lately

i dropped out of school.

my life is coming together
and i don't care what anyone thinks.

anyways, i wish it was summer
everything just feels right in the summer
and i'll be 20 :)

i can't remember the last time i was happy for more than one night.
is it illegitimate for me to be this upset?
well fuck, not again.

messy, depressed, introverted, feels invisible, does not make friends easily, nihilistic, reveals little about self, fragile, dark, bizarre, feels undesirable, dislikes leadership, reclusive, weird, irritable, frequently second guesses self, unassertive, unsympathetic, low self control, observer, worrying, phobic, suspicious, unproductive, avoidant ( Read more... )

PNEUMONIA!

haha why does my life SUCK?!

smooth sailing

i am content.
i am very pleased with my life right now.