Comments | ninjab: i think i made a mistake.

ninjab

i think i made a mistake.

Jun 02, 2005 15:39

living here, in this house, is making me crazy. i sincerely believe its killing me. i know how overly dramatic this sounds, i really do. i use that word because its the opposite of living and my life lately genuinely feels that way ( Read more... )

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almost_gold June 3 2005, 18:17:32 UTC

i feel the same way. exactly.

everything around me is failing, friendships and relationships arent as strong as i created them to be in my head. wasnt worth coming back for, thats for sure.

ninjab June 3 2005, 18:30:38 UTC

julie, what are we going to do? how can we accept things for how they are and move on? i feel like shows or dinners or movies only temporarily distract. ugh. i hate this.

maybe we need a new hobby? i was thinking of really teaching myself how to play the harmonica, since no one here will hire me and i cannot afford professional instruction. blah.

im really sorry you feel the same way. i mean, it helps to know im not alone, but i would never want someone else to feel this way. i hate being so self-aware and analytical.

almost_gold June 3 2005, 18:41:43 UTC

nothing is a distraction at all really, i'm rarely satisfied or happy. i hate going out, my friends for the most part are flakes, my sister and i arent even on speaking terms, im so fucking bored. not that i was happy there either, but really - i just should have stayed. i regret coming back immensely when i really think about it. i didnt even really like it and was lonely as hell, but still - i regret it. i feel like i'm the weakest ive ever been. having a new place now is helping, a little - so i can imagine what you're going through and i feel awful that you are. i'm always here for you.

ninjab June 3 2005, 18:46:17 UTC

i know what you mean. we both should have given it at least a year. i had never been THAT far from everyone in my life and there were days where that felt amazing and days where i felt a bit helpless. but yeah, we definitely should have. im so sorry you feel so terrible...if you ever want to talk or get together, let me know...for real...i hope things get better for us both...seems like they kind of have to. xo

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