I'm so frustrated right now. All I want to do, seriously, is run ( Read more... )

I just had such a collegiate moment: walking back from the bookstore with the October air crisp and sunny, little orange leaves already on the ground, people on bicycles passing me, reading my book while walking through Tappan Square, having just talked to my best friend, wearing some brown shirt as always, and thinking how some things never change ( Read more... )

College is going to be weird in that you have no past with the people around you. Yesterday when we were talking about middle school, and Lakeland and Panas, and just people who we all have always known, I thought of that. At Oberlin I'll have no reputation to go off of, because everyone there will be new. And in my case that works to my ( Read more... )

Last night there was a moment, just one short moment, when Becca and I were lying there listening to Neil Young, and I looked at my room --I mean really looked at my room-- for what felt like the first time. I noticed things that I hadn't seen before. I looked at all that stuff not just as stuff, but as stories, of which there are so many. It doesn ( Read more... )

Summer has been, consistently over the years: eating two dinners, cleaning out my room-- the closet, old papers-- while listening to Joni Mitchell and The Decemberists, sore feet and sock tans, driving home from James' house with the radio turned off and the windows open, although that house (of all things) has changed ( Read more... )

I'm writing here because I want to be able to remember a livejournal version of this day. Whether anyone reads it, I don't care; this is for me, to know that what I would write today would be this ( Read more... )

I'm remembering something that RJ said to me once:
"It's all or nothing with you."

I've been taking this 18 thing very seriously.

i got a 93 on the chem regents.
i am dying of disbelief.

amidst all my studying i get reminded of the fact that i'm leaving in less than two weeks now. i'm in intense studying and testing mode right now, but it's still at the back of my mind, and sometimes it comes up to the surface and i have such mixed and intense feelings about it. i want so badly to be there and i'm beyond excited, but i am very sad ( Read more... )

ok well kat writing in livejournal again inspired me to write again, and she started writing because of someone else who started writing because someone else stopped writing, and that's sort of why i stopped writing too, because the someone that stopped triggered kat to stop but now kat is retriggered by someone who started because of the someone ( Read more... )